I have no idea why I am here.
Probably because I'm lost?
Lost around here, in the heart and soul.
Why do you always have to apparently give yourself a hard time?
It's like, you know that I will be anxious if you're unhappy; so are you trying to hint that you're unhappy or what?
You say girls are hard to understand; I say at least girls will open up at last.
Wednesday, July 31, 2013
Friday, July 26, 2013
26/7
I should have brought you flowers, and held your hands; give you all my hours, when I had the chance.
It always sucks when a relationship does not work out in the end.
Shikes.
It always sucks when a relationship does not work out in the end.
Shikes.
Monday, July 22, 2013
22/7
Happy birthday, to the very lucky girl that I do not know in person.
You ought to cherish what he has to give you - happiness, love, stability and security.
These few days I am slowly transforming, and I wish in the next few days I will begin a new phase in my life emotionally and spiritually.
And until then, I am still practicing how to tell myself to full-heartedly say goodbye and bon voyage to you AND accept you being with her.
Goodbye.
You ought to cherish what he has to give you - happiness, love, stability and security.
These few days I am slowly transforming, and I wish in the next few days I will begin a new phase in my life emotionally and spiritually.
And until then, I am still practicing how to tell myself to full-heartedly say goodbye and bon voyage to you AND accept you being with her.
Goodbye.
Monday, July 15, 2013
15/7
Am at the office now.
Yesterday was very tiring, physically as well as mentally.
I just don't seem to understand why our thinking are so different, so diverse from each other?
We live together but how come I always find your thinking as absurd, weird and very disturbing?
Weird.
Yesterday was very tiring, physically as well as mentally.
I just don't seem to understand why our thinking are so different, so diverse from each other?
We live together but how come I always find your thinking as absurd, weird and very disturbing?
Weird.
Sunday, July 14, 2013
14/7/13
So many conversations have been going on these few days.
I can't believe, still cannot, that my mum actually broke down like that in front of me. I thought I would be the one that would be doing the crying as I always do.
Not saying that I'm back to the "emo" person that I used to be.
Of course I have become more sensible and thoughtful.
忘了我，多难过多不能接受；
忘了我，只要你好过就足够。
I can't believe, still cannot, that my mum actually broke down like that in front of me. I thought I would be the one that would be doing the crying as I always do.
Not saying that I'm back to the "emo" person that I used to be.
Of course I have become more sensible and thoughtful.
忘了我，多难过多不能接受；
忘了我，只要你好过就足够。
Monday, July 8, 2013
8/7/2013
Missed blogging.
Looking back, I have had the persistence to blog almost everyday at one point. ALMOST everyday! Sometimes I have 2 posts in a day, but I guess 2 was the most.
I won't say that I have been through a lot, but much enough for me to make sense of a bit of life.
It does not necessarily mean that you are going to be able to please everyone, including yourself, even when you try with your utmost effort to do so.
Life ain't easy, people are tougher to deal with.
I don't know whether this is the effect of influence or is it just my mental development?
I feel colder and more alienated from outside.
Many things that I have visualized myself to do, to conquer and to accomplish yet I have not.
If it was some time ago, I would end this post by saying "I miss you" or something that would make me smile, though I won't like the after effects of the memories that get triggered following the word.
I must move away from you. You may have brought me happiness, hope and strength. You may have been the person that I cared for most and vice versa.
I just can't bear looking into your eyes. Those eyes that yearn for affection and support.
I can give all that you need and that I wish you to have, firstly happiness.
It is never enough, when what you offer is no longer of interest to the second party.
Looking back, I have had the persistence to blog almost everyday at one point. ALMOST everyday! Sometimes I have 2 posts in a day, but I guess 2 was the most.
I won't say that I have been through a lot, but much enough for me to make sense of a bit of life.
It does not necessarily mean that you are going to be able to please everyone, including yourself, even when you try with your utmost effort to do so.
Life ain't easy, people are tougher to deal with.
I don't know whether this is the effect of influence or is it just my mental development?
I feel colder and more alienated from outside.
Many things that I have visualized myself to do, to conquer and to accomplish yet I have not.
If it was some time ago, I would end this post by saying "I miss you" or something that would make me smile, though I won't like the after effects of the memories that get triggered following the word.
I must move away from you. You may have brought me happiness, hope and strength. You may have been the person that I cared for most and vice versa.
I just can't bear looking into your eyes. Those eyes that yearn for affection and support.
I can give all that you need and that I wish you to have, firstly happiness.
It is never enough, when what you offer is no longer of interest to the second party.
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