12/1

It rained like shit yesterday.

And I also cried like shit in the cinema.

Cool movie it is, The Last Tycoon by Director Wang Jing.

Seriously cool action scenes, typical Chinese.

It was 1913 in China and two lovebirds were brutally separated by fate.

I still have the goosebumps when I think back.

1930s, they met again in Shanghai, where the guy is in charge- he's the big boss.

By then the girl was already married to another guy.

And their fate just twisted.

1940s, the Japs invade. Ugly things happened.

Super sad love story.

I seriously did not know I would cry like shit.

11/1

骂你是为你好啊。

衰仔。

:P

10/1

Sometimes I wonder whether you taunt me to believe some things;

or am I just believing that you are taunting me when you might not be?

Confusion.

6/1

Some people want diamond rings,

Some just want everything;

But everything is nothing,

If I ain't got you.

:(

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A stroll in the morning helped me realize a lot of things.

I can't help but wonder what does it feel like to you?

I've always been murdered - again and again, however in the end I will still leave chances for you.

Though unintentionally.

Why is it so hard?

5/1

January just ran in like a lost child.

Probably the best feeling to have is to feel nothing.

Nothingness is were you can roam wild, free.

Nothingness is just that cool, that awesome.

I feel - nothing.

28/12

今天我儿子说我心情很好。

他在和我争键盘。

用欠打的眼神看着我。

发烧又不吃药。

儿子呀，吃药。

有的人，

认真爱过一次以后就不敢再随便爱了，

因为怕重蹈覆辙，

怕感情的伤害，怕心灵变得更累。

所以，我们都失去了深爱的能力。——《恋爱恐慌症》

我心想，

你和我，

是不是这样的情形？