29/6

It's Saturday; marking the end of my 2nd week of internship training.

10 more to go!

I'm currently working in a cool company, working on drug discovery and screening.

It has been fine, at least I'm not the only intern around.

Things have been improving between me and P; we are talking a lot more and we are quite emotionally stable.

He never fails to put smiles on my face.

I miss you, already.

Working today, and you know how awful it is to miss a concert!

Boohoo.

23/5

So many things have been going out of hand recently.

It feels very insecure to to lose grip on practically everything.

You always say that I could choose to be happy.

But you never realized that sometimes, it takes more than a choice.

Circumstances.

Boy, would you understand one day that I will wait for you?

16/5

It has been a really long time.

Probably the reason of me being able to type fast is because I hate to miss out my thoughts.

My thoughts always work faster, DAYUM faster than my fingers so I always have to catch up with my thoughts.

Thoughts are really important to me, I don't exactly know why.

Today, I wrote at the positivism poster:

" You may leave now. I will keep our memories. Goodbye, Almost Lover. "

I hope I will stand by what I wrote - to allow you to leave. Or to escape, as you wish to.

You have gone away.

The way your eyes looks at me, however, still feels the same.

It is as though you still have so many unspoken words.

It hurts me to see you like that.

Gah. You will just prefer to not understand.

3/5

或许，

我应该是对你彻底死心了？

最近的心情，

总是受压抑。

似乎没有人了解我了。

3/5

或许，

我应该是对你彻底死心了？

最近的心情，

总是受压抑。

似乎没有人了解我了。

23/4

I'm a little bit "back" in the blogging business.

Sorry guys, (if there are still people who are reading my miserable blog), for being away for so long.

I've just finished reading a book, MY book since I've bough it :P, its title is ----------

Me Before You

The last time I've been SO indulged in a novel is probably.. a few months back when I read "Anybody Out There?" by Marian Keyes.

I cried like hell when I reached the final part of "Me Before You".

It was coincidence that the two books above are bought using my BR1M book vouchers, 1 year apart though, and that both involve romance and the main characters are either paralyzed or traumatized by an awful accident.

In "Me Before You", I have no idea why I feel so familiar to the feelings of the girl. Probably it is because I have experienced the way she feels?

However, I do not want to send our memories to Dignitas in Switzerland.

I would rather be a quadriplegic than to end my own life, even letting myself try for 6 months.

I cried.

6/4

Happy birthday Ching-ah-Ling-ah-Ting Tong! :)

Anyway.

Have to sing to myself:

"We will recover; the worst is over now."

Well, who knows whether the worst is over?

I just know that you will always make the worst feel better when you're around.

I really miss us.

Don't leave.