28APR

The excruciating one month has finally passed.

And we made it! :D

I said that I would be extremely grateful if you stayed, and I really feel so. And blessed. And all the good feelings.

TTY, no words can exactly describe what or who you are to me. You are much more than important in my life and I hope that I can always bring you happiness, share your sadness and be your support when you feel weary.

For I, love you, always.

The Trip

I guess sometimes people have to grow up, the hard way.

Traveling alone - I did it. It's not entirely difficult, physically, but it held a certain level of difficulty, emotionally.
If you're traveling and meeting someone, I bet it'd be a great feeling, anticipation and excitement at once.
I really don't mind going all out just to see you and spend time with you.

I'm using 'you' because I know you'll be seeing this post, sooner or later.

I just want to remind you that I really love you. And nothing could pain me as much as the truth that you finally told.
Of course I'm relieved that you let your thoughts out; I know how toxic it can be to your heart if you keep everything inside. Thank you for trusting me.
I awoke in the middle of the night, not knowing what to do but shed tears. You looked so at peace and I just really didn't want to spoil that.
I felt that you were shying away from me gradually recently but i didn't want to stick long to that thought. Cause i know that you loved me still. Or not?
Of all things that humans need to live, I need you. I am certain that you are the source of happiness.
I am not in the position to ask you to stay, but if you would, it would certainly be wonderful. And i would be ever thankful.

You are a big part of my life. I love you.

You are and will always be my love, my energy to move forward.

Despite the row we just had, i still love you, with all i have.

It aches my heart when i don't know whether you're sad that we need to come across this situation.

When 2 hearts so close all the while suddenly have dissimilar thoughts and feelings, at least one will not feel good.

Always think that i should not over think things, which is extremely hard for a thinker like me.

It's like asking a... well, i can't find any synonymous description to this.

New year. Didn't exactly start out smooth.

9/9/14

Extremely long time since I've been here.

Reason: yourstruly has been busy with post-finishing-course (can't call it graduation cause I'm not officially a 'graduate' just yet) stuff. Got a few interviews, some with BIG companies, some with small ones, but yeah finally got into PPUM as an RA.

So before getting the job in PPUM, I was waiting for replies, hence, picked up a part-time job at a pharmacy in Island Glades. Unexpectedly, this was the place I learnt so much, not only about drugs and plasters and lubricants and how to use a price-tagger (whatever you call it).

Then moving to KL, moving to an apartment (sharing with 6 other girls); it's starting to make me realise that "Hey, this IS life".

Everybody has to learn how to appreciate more, and complain less.

*deep thought*

I love you, dear, and I know you do too. One day, we will live together, and I am already looking forward to that day!

17/7

RIP, all passengers on board Malaysian Airlines flight MH17.

It crashed right at the epicenter of the conflict war zone between pro-Russian rebels and the Ukrainian government. I do think that the findings so far suggest that the rebels have mistakenly shot down the Malaysian Boeing 777.

Rest in peace, all souls. The justice shall be restored.

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Meanwhile, on a different account, Yourstruly has been busy rotting at home after course completion exactly a month ago. FINALLY got a call from a desired place! :D

I will update you soon about the job.

6/6

In 3 blinks of the eyes (just to be less dramatic), I will be finishing my tertiary education in AIMST; graduating.

I have another 2 more exam weeks to go, until then, brace yourselves!

Mentally sent off my girl to UK, hope she's doing fine so far. <3 p="">
To be honest, I'm still quite anxious to bring The Special One back home for introduction. The whole idea still seems pretty much, scary.

I hope all goes fine: I get a good job, find a good piano teacher, get a good part time job, the family meeting goes fine..

I love you, and I thank you for being here always. <3 p="">

12/5

Almost a month in, and I'm back for a while.

Hi, just came back from meal at a Korean place, nice food, nice kids around. Sorry for the dizzy spell, I thought I could control that.

Sometimes, I think I'm rather stupid, yes, stupid. As I look back into my recent past, I do think that at some instances I really couldn't be any dumber than dumb. I'm so sorry if I have hurt or offended you in any way.

Personal grudges are stupid, so I don't really hold grudges, but unfortunately, quite unfortunately, my memory has a certain power, still. So if somebody has done something quite offensive to me in the past, sorry, you're etched.

And now I see why it's so hard for me to think that I'm forgiven.

Gah.