30/12

明年这么快就要到了。

你今年过得开心吗？

今年过得很充实，虽然刚从银行回来有一点失落。
我竟然用了那么多钱？？！
虽然是自己亲手赚回来的钱，可是。。总是有一点离谱。唉。
可是凡事都要往好的方向想！- 钱是赚得回来的！
所以从今天一直到新年，我不可以再浪费钱了！！

说回正题吧。
今年年头三月，我在英迪学院上课，就读A-Levels.
在那里交了好多朋友，也看见了朋友离离合合。

年头就有很多人毕业了，HSC的朋友全都走了：畹欣, 慧菁，谊润，旖玲，嘉倚。。

英迪的朋友太多了吧！

雪甄。
我们是在槟华认识的，可是在学院变得更加密切。 :)
有什么事都可以一起讲，如果不是好姐妹，那我不知道怎么形容我们了，哈哈。
真真切切希望你能开心，幸福，快乐。

Sumeet, Shivaani and Melissa.
Eh Gundumaaaasssss! =) You guys are the best bunch of crazy people I've ever known and I'm so glad we know each other, very well.
Meet meet, hope you can find a hot sizzling babe very soon and she'll hit on you immediately.
Shivaani, hope you can find a extra hot muscular but brainy guy soon and cut down the flirting!
Mel, hope you do well in Uni life soon and don't stop singing! Find someone else to hit boobs kay.
*wink* XOXO

月臆，徐琳，Angie。
你们每次上Accounts都会看见我吧。哈哈。谢谢你们，总可以当我的倾听者，当我说心事的好朋友。
——————此刻还有太多太多名字涌进脑海————————————————————

邓可欣，何美俞，林燕菁，Jolyn，Kiki。
大陆妹们，你们国得好吗？？！！想死你们了。从宿舍到皇后湾到新宿舍，有你们的时候真好~希望你们都会过得很好！谢谢你们的房间，成了我的“哭息地”。哈哈。那一次从美俞的房间望下。。唉。。

武德，淑茵。
谢谢你们的贴心，关怀与陪伴；在我最低落的时候在身边无形的支持。谢谢你，淑茵，当了我好几次的“哭包场所”。

仁凯，煜儆，智敏。
谢谢你们的问好，关心。谢谢你们。=)

隽松。
哈哈，停顿了很久才开始写了这一句。
你是我生命里，其中一个最重要的人。曾经有一段日子是最重要，哈哈。
听到你的名字，我的脑海就会有很多画面。
有太多太多的话没得对你说。
我知道你会过的很好，我也答应你，会过得好。　=)
谢谢你，走进了我的生命，教会了我好多东西，让我打从心底的笑。
虽然有很多不快乐的事情发生，我还是需要说对不起，有时候没有体谅到你的心情，你的立场。我太自私了。

考完试，毕业了。
第一份工作，认识了很多很棒的朋友。

宏伟，宇轩。
其实我很投入于工作，你们说的没错，可能是因为用来填满空间，避免胡思乱想吧。
谢谢宏伟，你是我聊天的好知己。　=)

第二份工作，特别开心，也认识了社会，领悟到许多曾经以为是不重要的道理。
雪霓，谢谢你的苦口婆心，我学会了很多，和你在一起的男人太幸福了，因为你好成熟，好理智。

还有一份不正式的工作。
老师，谢谢你的用心培育，骂是有原因的，我明白你的心态。早日康复。

终于误打误撞，进了大学。
我希望太多了，英国那么贵，我岂有本事让他负担我的学费？
唉。。
可是这里也很不错啊，设备齐全，环境良好，便宜。
在这里，真正的体会到人与人之间的关系可以那么复杂。
有一房的好室友，爱你们！
进来不到两个礼拜就号啕大哭吓倒你们了，不好意思！
还有一班大小男生！Andy, Zhong Hoong, Winson, CK, Shaun, Jason, 笑之不尽！
祝我们考试成功！

The past year has indeed been very memorable to me, many many of ups and downs, but I guess that's the essence of life, no?
I still love you, always will. Cause you've etched yourself in my heart, so deep.

<3

29/12

I still can't get over it.

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

Great, now my tongue's cacat.

28/12

Seeing you walk away with her hand in yours,

Kills me.

25/12

What else to say?

MERRRRRRY CHRISTMASSSSSSSSS ~!!!

24/12

It's Christmas Eve.

I wish you're happppy. =)

23/12

Another Christmas. <3

22/12

原来你一直都没有改变。

原来你一直都还在找寻着她的踪影。

原来你喜欢上了我们班上的她。

原来我一直都不存在于你的世界。

原来，我把希望放得太高了。

20/12

最后又是孤单到天明。

19/12

我不会吧。。。


不会！


NO WAY NO WAY NO WAY !


TAK JALAN TAK JALAN TAK JALAN !

19/12

当一切归零的时候。。。

17/12

あなたが目を笑ってください。


=)

It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you

Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/a/angela_zhang/journey.html ]
I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you

Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through

Cause It's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies

When satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everything is out to make me lose control
Coz It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you.. Ohh.. to you..

More lyrics: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/a/angela_zhang/#share

16/12

经过了那么多跌跌撞撞，我应该开始清醒了吧。

其实一直以来太努力，太执著的人， 都是我吧？

我一想起你，胸口会有一阵疼痛。

思念，真的会帮我把我的心声带给你吗？

好想好想你。

14/12

因为思念让爱零距离。

<3

12/12

加油啦。=)

不要像之前的我。 =）

10/12

我发现到，我好像终于有一点，没那么想你了耶。=)

8/12

一道彩虹是半圆，两道彩虹是团圆。♥

6/12

FUCK OFF LA.


You people think you guys are SO great ? 


And you guys can just blame everything beside you, including me, when things go wrong?


FUCK OFF.


Please control your temper, 'cause you haven't seen mine.


Please control what you said, 'cause you haven't heard what I could and would say.


Come on la, GROW UP PLEASE, SELFISH PEOPLE.


Super pissed.


It was, in fact still is, a beautiful day. And you people do THIS to me?


FUCK OFF.

3/12

This is my current fav song, A Thousand Years by Christina Perri =)




(Verse 1)
Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How do be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid
To fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt
Suddenly goes away somehow

(Pre-chorus)
One step closer

(Chorus)
I have died everyday
waiting for you
Darling, don't be afraid
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

(Verse 2)
Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything 
Take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath, 
Every hour has come to this

(Pre-chorus)
One step closer

(Chorus)
I have died everyday

Waiting for you
[| From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/c/christina-perri-lyrics/a-thousand-years-lyrics.html |]
Darling, don't be afraid
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a 
Thousand more

And all along I believed
I would find you
Time has brought
Your heart to me
I have loved you for a 
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

(Pre-chorus x2)
One step closer

One step closer

(Chorus)
I have died everyday
Waiting for you
Darling, don't be afraid,
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

And all along I believed
I would find you
Time has brought 
Your heart to me
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a 
Thousand more

3/12

当我看见你们俩之间的

陌生越来越少，

距离越来越近，

我的心里突然有

越来越多的孤单，

越来越浓的感伤。

你会不会像他一样，多我那么体贴，那么温柔?

慢等啦。

我的希望，所有美好的憧憬，应该始终会归零。

因为，你总是离我那么那么的远。

我爱你。

1/12

Damn.

I'm sorrry. Really am.

You're showing me that face? Seriously?

I hate it when people don't appreciate apologies.

I HATE IT.

22/11

Okayyyyy.
So..

You don't even bother to reply me.
Of course you're not going to say "Hi" to me when you see me.

I am so disappointed.

=(

19/11

I won't, let you, close to enough to hurt me.

17/11

You were so close to me. 

Close physically, but close in heart? 

No I guess.

16/11

I guess sometimes it takes just some courage to make a relationship happen.

I guess that's what I don't really have.

=(

15/11

I don't have the guts to confront you. 

Because I know that we aren't meant to be.

I simply just know it.

Even listening to Colbie Caillat's 'I never told you' makes me sob like hell.

I had so many chances to approach you but somehow I chicken out everytime.

Everytime I wanted to smile to you or maybe just say "hello", you'll turn away.

I'm that unnoticeable?

Awesome.

7/11

I HATE EGO.

不碰了好像忘了 恐惧却在脑海住着

重复卡在一个 重要的时刻 不自觉就会退缩

连幸福也克制着 觉得什麽都会变的

防备着平静到最後 连爱也透着冷漠

防备着平静到最後 独自寂寞

4/11

It is sometimes very weird indeed, how small the world actually is.

We're actually just that close, that close.

2/11

还需要多久-多长-多伤

你才会听见我-没说的话

=((

有一个女人爱着你，用心爱着你，彻底爱着你。

有个男人爱着你

用心爱着你

那个男人爱着你

彻底爱着你

他情愿变成影子

守护着你跟随着你

那个男人爱着你

心却在哭泣

还需要多久　多长　多伤

你才会听见他没说的话

坚强像谎言一样

不过是一种伪装

他只希望有个机会能被你爱上

还需要多久　多长　多渴望

你才会走向他

贴在他的身旁

微笑像谎言一样

是最起码的假装

眼泪只能躲藏

那个男人爱着你

忘记了自己

从此他小心翼翼

静静等待爱情

他情愿选择相信

为了你不言不语

那个男人爱着你

伤埋在回忆

无论要　多久　多长　多伤

他还是爱着你　一如往常

就好像一个傻瓜

对着那空气说话

他会不会有个机会能被你爱上

还需要多久 多长 多渴望

你再回头想他

贴在他的身旁

微笑像谎言一样

是最起码的假装

眼泪只能躲藏

那个男人就是我

你知道吗

还是知道却假装不知道吗

问到沙哑

你也不会回答

31/10

Last day of October. HAPPY HALLOWEEN ! =))

Quite occupied nowadays. =((

Exams, reports, assignments, forum. Gahhhhhhhh.

29/10

MAJOR ! I have NEW SPECS ! =)))

Money well spent, I guess. =)

Paradise.

Finally it's 12midnight !

Inilah paling awesome punya song. <3

PARADISE

When she was just a girl 
She expected the world 
But it flew away from her reach so 
She ran away in her sleep 
And dreamed of 
Para-para-paradise, Para-para-paradise, Para-para-paradise 
Every time she closed her eyes 

When she was just a girl 
She expected the world 
But it flew away from her reach 
And the bullets catch in her teeth 
Life goes on, it gets so heavy 
The wheel breaks the butterfly 
Every tear a waterfall 
In the night the stormy night she'll close her eyes 
In the night the stormy night away she'd fly 
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsfreak.com/c/coldplay/paradise_20980626.html ] 
And dreams of 
Para-para-paradise 
Para-para-paradise 
Para-para-paradise 
Oh oh oh oh oh oh-oh-oh 
She'd dream of 
Para-para-paradise 
Para-para-paradise 
Para-para-paradise 
Oh oh oh oh oh oh-oh-oh-oh 

La-la-la-la-la-la-la 
La-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la 
And so lying underneath those stormy skies 
She'd say, "oh, ohohohoh I know the sun must set to rise" 

This could be 
Para-para-paradise 
Para-para-paradise 
This could be 
Para-para-paradise 
Oh oh oh oh oh oh-oh-oh 
This could be 
Para-para-paradise 
Para-para-paradise 
This could be 
Para-para-paradise 
Oh oh oh oh oh oh-oh-oh-oh

27/10

Can't believe it's already the 27th and I feel I still haven't accomplished much.

Somehow, I'm already giving up on us. Okayyyy, giving up on you. =(

21/10

Gahhhhh. Missed out 20/10 !

According to some old bloke from the U of S, TODAY is doom's day.

Just so you know, ILY !

<3

19/10

Second post of the day.

Now that a lot of things are swarming towards, I feel contented.

19/10

It's 2 a.m. and I'm awake, AND blogging. What the? Something is wrong.

Listened to 丁当's 亲人. Damn touching. Love the lyrics. Makes me cry a little everytime I hear the melody and think back about the story and imagine, start to wildly imagine my 

任光曦. <3

別打開 禮物的緞帶
最初充滿期待 最後都腐敗
別打開 午夜的電臺
別讓情歌反覆再愚弄

而愛 並沒有教給我生存
只教我交易虛榮給天真
可是愛 讓我們變成陌生人
卻變不了更高尚的靈魂

不要吻我 只要抱著我
不要愛我 做我的親人
把手借我 一天一分鐘
做我最親密的親人
不是誰的情人 誰的某某某

就算我 全身濕透透
我也不再被誰 牽著鼻子走
如果我 還握住拳頭
可能我怕我的夢飛走

而愛 並不如你想的萬能
不能讓我們不再戰爭
可是愛 連慈悲也沒多慈悲
誰愛越深越容易被犧牲

不要吻我 只要抱著我
不要愛我 做我的親人
把手借我 一天一分鐘
讓我還敢做我的夢
做我夢中偉大的微笑的英雄

不要吻我 只要抱著我
不要愛我 做我的親人
把手借我 一天一分鐘
讓我還敢做我的夢
做我夢中偉大的微笑的英雄
我也不再被誰 牽著鼻子走如果我 還握住拳頭
可能我怕我的夢飛走

而愛 並不如你想的萬能
不能讓我們不再戰爭
可是愛 連慈悲也沒多慈悲
誰愛越深越容易被犧牲

不要吻我 只要抱著我
不要愛我 做我的親人
把手借我 一天一分鐘
讓我還敢做我的夢
做我夢中偉大的微笑的英雄

不要吻我 只要抱著我
不要愛我 做我的親人
把手借我 一天一分鐘
讓我還敢做我的夢
做我夢中偉大的微笑的英雄

You're so far away. So far away that I have to tiptoe to try to reach you, only try.

Avete preso il mio cuore, quella notte.

17/10

When you try your best but you don't succeed.

When you get what you want but not what you need.

When you feel so tired but you can't sleep.

Stuck in reverse.

Lights will guide you home.

And ignite your bones.

And I will try to fix you.

And high up above or down below.

When you're too in love to let it go.

But if you never try you'll never know.

Just what you're worth.

I will try, to fix you.

<3

16/10

I know that somehow I mean nothing to you

But 

Deep down

I'm starting to build you into something so big I can't even imagine

What if I were to hope too much and disappoint myself over poor judgement again?

Will I have anything to hold on to?

This is so awesome. Imagine.

I mean like, for Heaven's sake. Help others in need.

14/10

Back home, a day in advance, cause I had acute gastritis.

Somehow I am grateful that I did not go overseas. Now I can always come home whenever I need to.

=)

Contented.

I guess that's what we all have to learn to be.

10/10

When the world turns its back against you, what have you to hold on to?

I don't have anything.

有座巨大的停了的时钟 倾倒在赶路的途中 挡我 向前走

有只黑色的老鹰在俯冲 叼走了你送的承诺 回头 冷冷看我

有阵将眼泪扫落的狂风 掀起了隐藏的疼痛 把我 变赤裸

我为蔓延的回忆除草了 心中却长出盛开的 寂寞 原来是梦

有些伤痕像场大火 把心烧焦难以复活

不碰了好像忘了 恐惧却在脑海住着

重复卡在一个 重要的时刻 不自觉就会退缩

连幸福也克制着 觉得什么都会变的

防备着平静到最后 连爱也透着冷漠(独自寂寞)

有人说我的微笑是暖的 心里却很难被感动 狠狠 解剖我

从不是有意想害谁难过 甚至会沮丧一直没突破 沉重的壳

有些伤痕像场大火 把心烧焦难以复活

可是我 想要忘了 恐惧如何把我上锁

期待阳光炽热 爱来的时刻 能用力去拥抱着

多幸福就多快乐 不让未知成为负荷

投入的留下了每一刻 不怕的人 最富有

人太脆弱 会不停错过

太多宝贵的 都需要跋涉 才可以获得

太多璀璨的 越隔着夜色 越光芒四射