28/12

今天我儿子说我心情很好。

他在和我争键盘。

用欠打的眼神看着我。

发烧又不吃药。

儿子呀，吃药。

有的人，

认真爱过一次以后就不敢再随便爱了，

因为怕重蹈覆辙，

怕感情的伤害，怕心灵变得更累。

所以，我们都失去了深爱的能力。——《恋爱恐慌症》

我心想，

你和我，

是不是这样的情形？

19/12

Past mid December.

Congratulations to all who got 8A's for PMR, including le sister.

:)

______________________________________________________________________________

I hate it when you keep pushing me away.

Like you have already foreseen this day coming.

Like all you wanted to do is shove me away and expect me to forget everything.

You idiot.

乐嘉老师赠送给男人的12条名言： 

1、如果不是生在帝王富贵家，那么找女朋友，不要只看重她的长相，而要学会欣赏她的内涵。你找伴侣，不是在找情人，而应该是在找妻子。

2、一个成功的男人身边，需要一个相对优秀的女人。而这种优秀，与她的容貌无关，与她的内涵相连。

3、把她的地位放在游戏之上，毕竟她是那个肯能会陪你一辈子的人，游戏只是消遣罢了。

4、你可以为了父母去教训自己的爱人，但是不能为了爱人去背弃自己的父母。如果她对你父母一直不好，那么她可以离开了。

5、如果，你不能给她一个美好的未来，那么，请不要把她哄上床。

6、不能做到的，就不要承诺。男人，膝下有黄金，嘴里也有黄金，不要轻易答应什么，因为你可能会食言

7、爱情不是追来的。如果你死皮赖脸追求了很久，她却无动于衷，那么哥们，放下吧。有时，咱男人的尊严比一个女人更重要。

8、你一生担负的责任很多，但最重要的是四个，对自己的父母负责，对自己的未来负责，对自己的女人和感情负责，对这个世界负责。

9、不要总想着玩弄感情，小心它有天会玩弄了你。

10、物以类聚，人以群分，这句话对男人很贴切。跟上进的人交朋友，跟有人生品位的人交朋友，你会获益很多。

11、这个世界上，最值得你爱的，除了父母，还有自己的女人和哥们，然后才是你自己。

12、哥们，如果不擅长讨女孩欢心，那就去讨自己的未来欢心吧。男人，不是来征服女人的，而是来征服世界的。

乐嘉老师赠送给女人的17条名言：

1、一个女人的品位在于她身边站着一个怎样品位的男人。女人一生最成功的事情之一，便是选了一个对的男人。

2、女人的友情来的快，去的也快。其实男女感情远没有你跟姐妹的感情可靠，所以，珍惜你们之间的友情吧。

3、一个女人如果第一眼就让男人想到性，那么她是很失败的。

4、一个男人爱你的时候，你往往会感动于细节，同样，一个男人不爱你了，你也可以从细节中来发现。

5、想了解一个男人的好坏，先去看他身边是一群怎样的朋友。

6、当你从床上下来那一刻，你在他心中就开始贬值了。如果你把一切都给了现在的男友，那么，除了老公这个称呼你还能留给你未来的丈夫?

7、把买化妆品的钱去买两本好书，漂亮的容颜固然可以让人眼前一亮，丰富的内涵却能让人经久不忘。

8、不要相信男人的甜言蜜语，面对喜欢的女孩时，不认识字的男人也会变成一个诗人。而诗人本来就不生活在现实中。

9、男人没有你想象的那样好，可以真爱，但不要深爱，在爱情里为自己留个退路，否则受伤时会措手不及。

10、虚伪的男人总倾向于喜欢你的容貌，真正的男人总倾向于爱你的内心。

11、去发现一个有潜力的男人，往往比去傍大款更切合实际。并且你会更有成就感。

12、随时预防遇到色狼。必要时向他胯下踢，用力程度自己把握。

13、这个世界上，最值得你爱的，除了父母，只有你自己。

14、爱情不是追来的，所以，永远不要认为被男孩追是理所当然的。但是，你对他的考验是必须的。

15、当一个清高的女孩遇到一个高傲的男孩时，总有一个人会卑微下来，但是如果可以, 不要把自己放得太低。

16、在爱情里，永远不要抱怨什么。

17、爱情，是需要用心经营的。恋爱也是一门艺术.

俊男美女们，学一学哦！

Imagine Dragons - It's Time

"It's Time"

So this is what you meant
When you said that you were spent
And now it's time to build from the bottom of the pit
Right to the top
Don't hold back
Packing my bags and giving the academy a rain check

I don't ever want to let you down
I don't ever want to leave this town
'Cause after all
This city never sleeps at night

It's time to begin, isn't it?
I get a little bit bigger, but then I'll admit
I'm just the same as I was
Now don't you understand
That I'm never changing who I am

So this is where you fell
And I am left to sell
The path to heaven runs through miles of clouded hell
Right to the top
Don't look back
Turning to rags and giving the commodities a rain check

I don't ever want to let you down
I don't ever want to leave this town
'Cause after all
This city never sleeps at night

It's time to begin, isn't it?
I get a little bit bigger but then I'll admit
I'm just the same as I was
Now don't you understand
That I'm never changing who I am

It's time to begin, isn't it?
I get a little bit bigger, but then I'll admit
I'm just the same as I was
Now don't you understand
That I'm never changing who I am

This road never looked so lonely
This house doesn't burn down slowly
To ashes, to ashes

It's time to begin, isn't it?
I get a little bit bigger, but then I'll admit
I'm just the same as I was
Now don't you understand
That I'm never changing who I am

It's time to begin, isn't it?
I get a little bit bigger, but then I'll admit
I'm just the same as I was
Now don't you understand
That I'm never changing who I am

15/12

:)

Cherish what you have.

Now.

Appreciate what you have had.

Past.

Then only you will be able to love what you will have.

Then.

:)

8/12

Birthdays. Lots of them coming.

:)

I've been alright, MIA for a while.

Hmmmmm, well, still a lot of stuffs that I'm really having no idea of how they have become such.

Why are you doing this?

Hahh.

2/12

獅子吃軟不吃硬，

經常口是心非，

很樂觀又很悲觀，

安全感不多，

有點感性，

有些話即使害怕錯過也不說，

常常被人騙，

小敏感，

小潔癖，

小心軟，

害怕受傷，

總說自己不孤單，

其實很寂寞對陌生人冷冷的，熟悉後就嘻嘻哈哈，

總表現的很堅強其實很軟弱，

總被人誤解卻不願解釋.

1/12

I hate to realize but guys (whoever is STILL reading my blog) , it's December, another month all over again.

Today I feel in fault to you.

Guilt; that I actually still cannot control my emotions especially whenever I am with you.

Probably it's because I know it's safe to be fully myself when I'm with you?

I don't want us to go wrong.

26/11 {2}

YAY!

I have no guts!

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY !

);;;

Yayyyyyyyyyyyy.

26/11

I won't put my hands up in surrender.

Well recently I've been so attached to your feelings and it just feels terrible cause I know that you're not attached to mine.

Probably I shouldn't be moving any further from where I stand now?

That might just be the best way out.

为何他会离开你 谁叫你变了他知己

 常缠在一起 会换来危机

他找你 不找你 你竟幼稚到讲道理

 男人总轻视你寸步难离

原来拥吻 如不放 错在你

21/11

I don't know whether you still remember what you told me;

I'm still going to write.

Gah.

Why do you always have to make me feel like this?

Totally stressed.

I Can't Make You Love Me

:(

Turn down the lights
Turn down the bed
Turn down these voices inside my head

Lay down with me, tell me no lies
Just hold me close, don't patronize
Don't patronize me.

Cause I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something that it won't
And here in the dark,these final hours
I will lay down my heart; I will feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
Cause I can't make you love me when you don't.

I'll close my eyes cause then I don't see
Morning will come and I'll do what's right
Just give me till then to give up this fight
And I will give up this fight.

Cause I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it that won't
Here in the dark, these final hours
I will lay down my heart I will feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
Cause I can't make you love me when you don't.

17/11

Back for a quick post.

Yours truly has get a smartphone finally and has begun to explore its wonders.

:)

Looking at your birthday horoscope, I was like "WOW, totally accurate."

I'm dying to know you more.

Literally, dying.

:)

14/11

Why do you always have to be so self-conscious?

It is so disturbing to know that I actually affect you so negatively.

Help?

Please.

Why do you always have to plunge me into guilt and discomfort?

I'm just trying to make you happy.

Am I not trying enough?

Tired.

13/11

很多时候，都会想起儿子的话。

为什么我在自己都没发现的时候，让你看穿了？

我还是那么不会控制我的思索和情绪吗？

或许，我会怕。

我会怕他随时会突然出现，扰乱我的步伐。

我会怕那时你不在身边，没有人制止着我作出疯狂的反应。

我会怕我有哪一天，不再对你重要了。

我不要。

:(

11/11

One's Day huh?

The dream last night is still driving me crazy.

We were going on a vacation, like any other ordinary couple - which was exceptionally

WEIRD

cause we're no where CLOSE to being a couple.

Anyhow it was a beautiful day.

And I swear we were going somewhere pretty, like near the beach or a lagoon thing.

And you were hugging me from behind.

And you start talking so softly into my ears I had to keep pinching you to have you stop it.

And.

And you just kissed me on my neck out of no where.

It was crazy.

I actually enjoyed the fact that you were so in love with me - mind you it was a freaking dream.

Like, passion runs wild.

Then, even myself couldn't believe it but I

PUSHED YOU AWAY.

Can you believe that?

Cause I could see her from the corner of my eyes.

And I know that I could never be her.

Why are you replacing her with me?

Why do I always get treated this way?

Not once, twice.

And it's always her.

Am I really not good enough?

I surrender.

You win, bastard.

10/11

Well, for now,

Your girlfriend is so damn lucky. 

:)

:)

:)

:)

:)

:/

:(

4/11

Confusion.

Confusion always sets in and quietly settles down in my space.

That's why, I wonder.

Confusion.

:)

3/11

Don't suppress your sadness.

Please don't.

It's killing me to see you do that.

Karma, I suppose?

:(

2/11

I don't know whether you'd still be reading this or not.

Writing to you from here seems to ease much of the burden I have.

Eventually, you'd always be somewhere nearby.

Thank you.

:)

31/10

Probably I shouldn't have met you.

Why is it that we don't get to choose the people that we meet and  whether we'll be happy with and without them?

I hate it when I have no control over my emotions.

Like, I don't like it when my emotions are overpowering and my subconscious is yelling at me about stuff that I don't want to hear because I know how true they actually are.

Everything becomes so bland without you around.

There are so many other stuffs surrounding you.

I just want to be in your mind once in a while.

And yes, I'm too greedy.

Cause that'll be impossible.

I'm so horrible.

You're a good guy.

:(

26/10

Кажи ми, можеш ли да накара болката да спре?

Mantieni la calma e canta ad alta voce.

獅子座
獅子座的女孩儘管外在很自信，但是很少能察覺到她心底深處的不安感，如果能找一個男人真的把她當女神一樣膜拜、和她共度一生的話，獅子女最願意！

最會共度一生的男人星座：白羊座男
獅子女的理想情人莫非就是白羊座男，開朗、樂觀的天性，是獅子女和白羊男最大的共性，找到這樣的男人共度一生，彼此相互扶持能勝利度過任何難關！

So please somebody tell me that he wasn't a true Aries at all. :(

25/10

323.

It's still a very special number to me.

Probably after all this time, you're still the one who always takes my breath away.

I miss you.

Nobody can ever make me miss them like this.

24/10

Who are you to judge me like you did?

Seriously upset.

20/10

Hope I'm going to be fine.

:)

Sincerely,

Me.

Finally back home after 3 weeks in campus.

Somehow it feels a bit quirky.

My personal space has shrunken, a miserable lot.

And I don't really enjoy it.

:(

7/10

Have to, have to persuade myself.

To not fall for all those misinterpreted feelings.

Never, ever again.

So meaningful. Get some time to read these. :)

【21条女孩需懂得的哲学】

1、不要在流眼泪的时候做任何决定，情绪负面的时候说话越少越好。

2、不要去反复思考同一个问题，不要把所有的感情都放在一个人身上，你还有父母，有朋友。 　　

3、不要害怕做错什么，即使错了，也不必懊恼，人生就是对对错错，何况有许多事，回头看来，对错已经无所谓了。

4、有负面情绪是正常的，但是自己一定要知道，要明白这只是生活的一小部分，在其余时间里，要尽量的让情绪平稳起来。

5、那个人，突然不联系你了，很正常;那个人，突然又联系你了，也很正常，这什么也不说明。

6、如果不懂，就说出来，如果懂了，就别说，笑笑即可。 　　

7、一切的烦恼都是自找，因此也只能自己解决，不要找朋友哭诉，找他们去打球。

8、说过的话一定要做到，即使是很蠢的话，再蠢也比言而无信好。 　

9、无论发生怎样的变故，不要打破生活原有的规律，要按时吃饭，按时睡觉。 　　

10、不要去害怕做一件事，不要害怕触景伤情，不要害怕说错话，不要害怕想起过去，不要害 怕面对未来。

11、无论是对是错，你需要有一个准则，你的行为应该遵循这个准则，并根据现实生活不断的修正。反反复复优柔寡断的人，是不可能讨人喜欢的。在对错之间徘徊的人，形象不如从错到对的人正面。

12、当他说："让我们冷静一段时间好吗？"的时候，要冷静的说好，然后挂掉电话。不要哀求，他不是来征求你的意见的。 　　

13、不要把心底的话全掏出来，这些是只属于你的财富。

14、不要和一个人和他议论同一个圈子里的人，不管你认为他有多么可靠。

15、当你不知道和他说什么的时候，那就什么也不要说，沉默有无限种含义。 　　

16、不要追求什么结果，每个人结果都一样，就是死亡。 　

17、不要后悔，无论怎样都不要后悔，后悔的情绪比你所做错的事更加可怕，因为这会摧毁你的自信，自尊以及很有可能让你去做一件更错的事。

18、无论遇到什么事情，都要对自己说：这是正常的。而不要说：我怎么这么倒霉？或是：他 怎么这样？那些遇到汶川地震，911或印尼海啸的人很多都没有机会抱怨了。比起他们，生活中的一些波折都是正常的，今天也许你的男朋友离你而去，你会觉得自己是世界上最惨的人，但是别忘了也许这世上同时有几十万个姑娘和你有着同样的遭遇，只是你不知道而已。

19、不要担心嫁不出去，更不要因为年纪大了草率结婚，担心嫁不出去总比担心老公出轨要离婚，小三抢财产要好.担心嫁不出去只是担心而已，心情好了还照样过原来的日子，老公真要离婚那才是真的麻烦。 　

20、一定要明白，自己所做的一切都是为了追寻一种状态，一种自我的满足感和幸福感.不要害怕什么，这世上可供害怕的事太多了，你是害怕不完的。有事情，就解决，不能解决，那就拉倒。

21、最后一条，女人想过得好一些，还是要走内在男人化，外在女人化的路啊！

Try.

Great new song by P!nk, totally love her album cover man.

"Try"

Ever wonder about what he's doing
How it all turned to lies
Sometimes I think that it's better to never ask why

Where there is desire
There is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone's bound to get burned
But just because it burns
Doesn't mean you're gonna die
You've gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
You gotta get up and try try try

Eh, eh, eh

Funny how the heart can be deceiving
More than just a couple times
Why do we fall in love so easy
Even when it's not right

Where there is desire
There is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone's bound to get burned
But just because it burns
Doesn't mean you're gonna die
You've gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
You gotta get up and try try try

Ever worried that it might be ruined
And does it make you wanna cry?
When you're out there doing what you're doing
Are you just getting by?
Tell me are you just getting by by by

Where there is desire
There is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone's bound to get burned
But just because it burns
Doesn't mean you're gonna die
You've gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
You gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
You gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try

You gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try

6/10

Thinking of trying to not think of you. :(

28/9

Have you ever understood how insecure a girl can be?

She seems emotionless and moody at times to the people surrounding her.

She seems to be harsh and tough to everybody, including herself.

It is most unlikely for her to allow anyone too close into her life.

This is because she seals up the most inner part of her heart before anyone gets there to hurt it and scar it.

And also before she starts to lose her sanity and hurt others; most of the time it is herself.

_____________________________________________________________________

I wrote this around a month ago.

My mood has changed quite a lot, generally.

Still there are fluctuations but please God, help me through this.

26/9

Alright I seriously will try to post this BEFORE 27/9.

I have ten minutes.

Okay.

Today was a relatively busy day; very rainy, very occupied.

Whatsoever, I had a few of my great laughs today.

:)

Grateful to have all those awesome people in my life.

Probably the last person on earth I should think of is you.

You seriously..

Gah, you put me searching for words again.

23/9

Seven rounds on the track today.

I turned the music up so loud.

To block out everything from my mind.

Somehow it didn't work.

And the devil started to whisper, mutter and yell.

Unleashed; scarred.

22/9

Finally long sleep-hours.

All the hassle is kind of halted for the weekend; and I finally have some ample time for my thinking.

I think a lot.

Doesn't necessarily mean that I don't take rash moves or do stupid stuffs but, I think a lot.

Why do you have to come and disrupt the ambiance?

I was so much better without you.

Until you tried to use that smiley to try to cover up everything that has happened.

I hate it.

21/9

Sometimes the feeling of wanting to blog just comes gushing, without much warning.

And sometimes I'm beaten aback by my own stupid thoughts.

It's like going back to the point that I thought I have passed.

It seriously sucks.

Like you thought you have moved on ages ago but then it's like suddenly you start sinking back into the intense emotions, the bad ones.

I know going back means nothing at all, because whatever I think, it has already passed.

The person hardest to convince might just be yourself. Believe it?

I always have hard times convincing myself.

- It's alright, you're not slacking, you're just doing things at a comfortable speed. Why hurry?
- It's alright, it's always going to be okay, just don't keep thinking that it won't.

And so many other stuffs that I really want to convince myself to believe.

Then, what the hell is wrong with me?

Why can't I just convince myself?

I don't ever want to go back to the pathetic state in which I hate myself.

No, thank you.

Help me believe.

And I thought I've started to believe that I've found a person that I can be comfortable with.

But then.

Hah.

It'll never be my turn to be your special one.

:(

And you might never know.

:(

20/9

总是有些时候，会有一些话，一些举动，让我不开心。

我也不想。

唉。

:(

這是你─獅子座



1.獅子總是喜歡指揮別人，有著天使的笑臉，惡魔的心。

2.很固執，但是面對著一個很在乎的人，固執的性格卻消失了，面對著那個一次又一次傷害自己的人總是會心軟。

3.吃軟不吃硬，經常口是心非，很樂觀又很悲觀，總說自己不孤單，其實很寂寞，對陌生人冷冷的熟悉後就嘻嘻哈哈。

4.心思慎密，有強烈的保護欲，懂得照顧每個人的感受。獅子是不懼任何言辭的，有獅子出沒的地方，旁人不會感到孤單。

5.在感情中就算分手，也會帶著無所謂的面具，默默承受一切。也正是因為這樣，要強的獅子會讓大家誤以為對情傷無所謂，可以很快好起來。

还满准的啦，只有第一条不是很准。嘻嘻。

12/9

Missed out blogging for a few days.

Yours truly was kind of busy and VERY away-from-keyboard these few days.

The settling back to hostel, new stuffs and etc.

I wonder, whether there'd be a day, when all my guilt will resolve.

I wonder.

"Paper Planes"

I'm pouring my heart out,
Leaving almost nothing for myself,
You're beginning my eyes
Why do I feel your mind is somewhere else?
Our love is delicate as butterfly wings,
But still we fight about the silliest things,
I hate it when we do,
So I'll keep forgiving you,
Over and over again.

And we're flying on paper planes,
Hoping it don't rain on my parade,
When I'm with you it's strange,
I'll make it everything,
Hoping that the wind don't change,
Oh oh oh oh…

It's danger when you fall out,
I never learned to walk before I run,
It's too easy to fall out
I'll push away the clouds to see the sun,
Oh oh oh,
As beautiful as a song a nightingale sings,
It's nothing compared to the joy you bring,
This river that love is,
I tried swimming,
And I went over my head.

Cause we're flying on paper planes, 
Hoping it don't rain on my parade,
When I'm with you it's strange,
I'll make last all day,
Hoping that the wind don't change,
Oh oh oh oh…

I'm scared to fall
Cause we're so high,
And it's a long way down from here,
But if we're strong, if we try,
We can touch the sky.

And we're flying on paper planes
Hoping it don't rain on my parade,
When I'm with you it's strange, 
I'll make it everything
I hope your wind don't change
Oh oh oh oh…

Kinda emo.

5/9

今天开始收拾东西了。

也把搁置在一旁的心情收拾了，更新了。

加油吧！

有時候你不懂：
一個建議你離開的人，可能是最愛你的；
一個希望你放棄的人，可能是最關心你的；
一個渴求不再聯繫的人，可能是最掛念你的；
一個默默離開的人，可能是最捨不得你的。

太正确了。

4/9

The satisfaction you get after shopping and realizing that you got yourself what you want and need.

:)

Thank you, God.

Today I shall not have posts on remorse or any tinge of sadness.

It's my happy-day.

:)

3/9 [2]

The urge to post for a second time.

:)

这会是我最后一次对你心软。

这样写，是提醒自己也好，是警告自己也好，总之，

我不会再想念你了。

永别!

:)

3/9

Again, it's past midnight already now.

Posting during midnight feels different. I feel closer to my feelings.

Today, I've passed by a place I thought we would go and thought of all the insane thoughts.

I have buried them deep down under my feet.

I still am sorry. Though sometimes very pissed, I'm still yeah, sorry.

September seems to be (hopefully) promising.

I've been gradually hyped up by the thought that I'd see all familiar faces again, breathe familiar atmosphere and be in the familiar place again.

And just at that moment, I've pictured you.

For quite some time now, I've been trying to suppress my inner feelings towards a lot of people.

I'm very much worried that sooner or later, someone will find out that I'm not being a hundred percent "me".

Because I don't want the people I don't want to think that I"m not okay to think that I'm really not okay.

I hate this.

All this raging emotions.

Sometimes I wonder whether I can just use all these emotions and generate electricity, cause it definitely is a renewable energy source and dependable, sustainable.

Nights world, I still thank Lord for blessing me with all the people who truly care for me and make sure I go to bed early.

Thank you.

31/8

So ends the month of August.

My month.

:)

May September be an even better month for all of us!

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29/8

Just came back a one-day trip to Butterworth.

:)

Girlfriends are always awesome.

I hate it when I figure out that every matter in life has an up side and an upsetting down side.

This brightened my day.

Life if not merely about survival, it's a chain moments of enjoyment.

Cheers to that.

27/8

This is my 300Th blog post.

THREE-HUNDREDTH.

Isn't it just pure awesomeness? Kudos to myself! *vain*

I've glimpsed through posts since 2008 and yes, my style of writing has certainly changed a lot.

I used to be so childish, changing font colors and font sizes line by line, word by word sometimes; making foolish judgement and hence writing stupid statements.

It's all part of growing up I guess.

Watched a lot of movies again, realized chunks of memories were once again let out to sail free.

Anastasia - the story of the Grand Duchess of the Romanov Empire. I love this story, it is really believable and it makes every girl want to become a true princess too. I used to fantasize that maybe I had some secret family, that I was probably of royalty! Those were the days, when every little girl looked at Disney princesses with glitters in their eyes.

A lot of stuff has happened, and I would say I'm grateful for all that God has planned for my journey, as it is wonderful, despite all the downs. I believe, if we have a good grasp on the ups, we'll be just fine.

After struggles with my own conscience, I've come to understand that whatever happens, happens for a reason.

Just let go.

Letting go might not be the easiest, but it will be the best way to freedom and true happiness.

*gosh, I'm talking like a grown-up!*

I shall now finally approve myself of fully controlling and conquering my fears, my insecurity.

Thank you to all the people who've watched me grow into who I am now, though sometimes I get lost in between the pages and blog posts. :)

Thanks to all who are still reading and support this corner, My Corner.

As a reward, :D

Will be back, before you know it. :)

24/8

Whooooops.

Missed out blogging for 2 days.

Sorrrrrrrry. :(

Was on vacation with Soul.

Soul isn't exactly cheerful these few days.

No idea why.

My photos are grayish recently.

Nevertheless, so much with the gray-ness. I'll post on China House tomorrow! :)

21/8

我本身还是非常讨厌“答应”这两个子。

不是因为这两个字看起来碍眼，

更不是因为读起来不好听。

是因为有很多时候，“答应”了，结果做不到。

做不到的原因多得很。

1。不想做。
2。只会说，不会做。
3。一时赌气而乱来的“答应”，根本没想过实现。
4。因为两者之间起了变化，“答应”过的事不再有意思了。
。。。。。。

还有很多。

我们之间就滞留在那里吧。

免得更不开心，烦躁，懊恼。

再见。

20/8

“在爱的幸福国度，你就是我唯一；我唯一爱的就是你。我真的爱的就是你。”

以上这首歌，我不知道何曾几时可以再打从心底真正的体验到了。

我不是不舍。

我只是不甘愿，看错了人。

有人说我潇洒，有人说我太疯狂，有人则哭天闹地说我是坏女人。

我都不管。

因为我实在是不开心。

你没有资格评论我。

你没有资格另我不快乐。

你更没有资格侮辱我。

我不是不想原谅你。

是你没有资格被原谅。

19/8

平静了。

安静的晚上，脑海浮现了很多事。

彩指甲油吧！

:)

Happy birthday :)

I'M OFFICIALLY TWENTY NOW!

Spell it with me.

T-W-E-N-T-Y!

Yayyyyyyyy !

With all the awesome people around, I'm seriously blessed.

And loved.

:)

I wish I have birthdays everyday.

Awesome wish?

Hope so :)

Thank you, for all those who wished me, and those who did not.

Bless you! :)

17/8

Exactly an hour and a half :)

HB to myself in advance :)

Thank God for all the people that I've met and haven't met in my life :)

Blessed. :)

I need to know.

Life's been blinding meFrom what I thought I'd seeIs there clarity in this insanity? (yeah)Whats she want from me? (yeah)

Roads in front of meTaking me astrayAre you leaving me?Or are you leading the way?Can you hear what I'm sayin'?

I need to know...I need to know...I need to know...I need to know...

Feel like I'm tryin' to breathe under waterTryin' to climb but I keep fallin farther (yeah)Will you take my hand?

Feels so far awayWant to see your faceAre you even there?Can you show me?!Can you make me believe?!

I need to know...I need to know...I need to know...I need to know...

I need to know...I need to know...
Please get a grip.

16/8

We are never, ever getting back together

I remember when we broke up the first time
Saying, "This is it, I've had enough," 'cause like
We hadn't seen each other in a month
When you said you needed space. (What?)
Then you come around again and say
"Baby, I miss you and I swear I'm gonna change, trust me."
Remember how that lasted for a day?
I say, "I hate you," we break up, you call me, "I love you."

Oooh we called it off again last night
But oooh, this time I'm telling you, I'm telling you

We are never ever ever getting back together
We are never ever ever getting back together
You go talk to your friends, talk to my friends, talk to me
But we are never ever ever ever getting back together

Like, ever...

I'm really gonna miss you picking fights
And me, falling for it screaming that I'm right
And you, would hide away and find your peace of mind
With some indie record that's much cooler than mine

Oooh, you called me up again tonight
But oooh, this time I'm telling you, I'm telling you

We are never ever ever getting back together
We are never ever ever getting back together
You go talk to your friends, talk to my friends, talk to me (talk to me)
But we are never ever ever ever getting back together

Oooh oooh oooh oooh

I used to think that we were forever ever
And I used to say never say never
Huh, so he calls me up and he's like, "I still love you"
And I'm like, "I just, I mean this is exhausting, you know, like,
We are never getting back together. Like, ever"

No!

We are never ever ever getting back together
We are never ever ever getting back together
You go talk to your friends, talk to my friends, talk to me
But we are never ever ever ever getting back together

We are not getting back together,
We oh, not getting back together

You go talk to your friends, talk to my friends, talk to me (talk to me)
But we are never ever ever ever getting back together

This song has like the funniest lyrics (or probably it's just me) ever. Totally suitable. Especially after all that you've done. 

Loser.

You think I'm such a dumb-ass?

Think twice.

Loser.

Words

Skylar Grey. Great voice.

"Words"

Always in a rush

Never stay on the phone long enough

Why am I so self-important?

Said I'd see you soon

But that was, oh, maybe a year ago

Didn't know time was of the essence

So many questions

But I'm talking to myself

I know that you can't hear me any more

Not anymore

So much to tell you

And most of all goodbye

But I know that you can't hear me any more

It's so loud inside my head

With words that I should have said

And as I drown in my regrets

I can't take back the words I never said

I never said

I can't take back the words I never said

Always talking shit

Took your advice and did the opposite

Just being young and stupid

I haven't been all that you could've hoped for

But if you'd held on a little longer

You'd have had more reasons to be proud

So many questions

But I'm talking to myself

I know that you can't hear me any more

Not anymore

So much to tell you

And most of all goodbye

But I know that you can't hear me any more

It's so loud inside my head

With words that I should have said

And as I drown in my regrets

I can't take back the words

The longer I stand here

The louder the silence

I know that you're gone but sometimes I swear that I hear

Your voice when the wind blows

So I talk to the shadows

Hoping you might be listening 'cos I want you to know

It's so loud inside my head

With words that I should have said

And as I drown in my regrets

I can't take back the words I never said

I never said

I can't take back the words I never said

Never said

I can't take back the words I never said