26/11 {2}

YAY!

I have no guts!

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY !

);;;

Yayyyyyyyyyyyy.

26/11

I won't put my hands up in surrender.

Well recently I've been so attached to your feelings and it just feels terrible cause I know that you're not attached to mine.

Probably I shouldn't be moving any further from where I stand now?

That might just be the best way out.

为何他会离开你 谁叫你变了他知己

 常缠在一起 会换来危机

他找你 不找你 你竟幼稚到讲道理

 男人总轻视你寸步难离

原来拥吻 如不放 错在你

21/11

I don't know whether you still remember what you told me;

I'm still going to write.

Gah.

Why do you always have to make me feel like this?

Totally stressed.

I Can't Make You Love Me

:(

Turn down the lights
Turn down the bed
Turn down these voices inside my head

Lay down with me, tell me no lies
Just hold me close, don't patronize
Don't patronize me.

Cause I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something that it won't
And here in the dark,these final hours
I will lay down my heart; I will feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
Cause I can't make you love me when you don't.

I'll close my eyes cause then I don't see
Morning will come and I'll do what's right
Just give me till then to give up this fight
And I will give up this fight.

Cause I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it that won't
Here in the dark, these final hours
I will lay down my heart I will feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
Cause I can't make you love me when you don't.

17/11

Back for a quick post.

Yours truly has get a smartphone finally and has begun to explore its wonders.

:)

Looking at your birthday horoscope, I was like "WOW, totally accurate."

I'm dying to know you more.

Literally, dying.

:)

14/11

Why do you always have to be so self-conscious?

It is so disturbing to know that I actually affect you so negatively.

Help?

Please.

Why do you always have to plunge me into guilt and discomfort?

I'm just trying to make you happy.

Am I not trying enough?

Tired.

13/11

很多时候，都会想起儿子的话。

为什么我在自己都没发现的时候，让你看穿了？

我还是那么不会控制我的思索和情绪吗？

或许，我会怕。

我会怕他随时会突然出现，扰乱我的步伐。

我会怕那时你不在身边，没有人制止着我作出疯狂的反应。

我会怕我有哪一天，不再对你重要了。

我不要。

:(

11/11

One's Day huh?

The dream last night is still driving me crazy.

We were going on a vacation, like any other ordinary couple - which was exceptionally

WEIRD

cause we're no where CLOSE to being a couple.

Anyhow it was a beautiful day.

And I swear we were going somewhere pretty, like near the beach or a lagoon thing.

And you were hugging me from behind.

And you start talking so softly into my ears I had to keep pinching you to have you stop it.

And.

And you just kissed me on my neck out of no where.

It was crazy.

I actually enjoyed the fact that you were so in love with me - mind you it was a freaking dream.

Like, passion runs wild.

Then, even myself couldn't believe it but I

PUSHED YOU AWAY.

Can you believe that?

Cause I could see her from the corner of my eyes.

And I know that I could never be her.

Why are you replacing her with me?

Why do I always get treated this way?

Not once, twice.

And it's always her.

Am I really not good enough?

I surrender.

You win, bastard.

10/11

Well, for now,

Your girlfriend is so damn lucky. 

:)

:)

:)

:)

:)

:/

:(

4/11

Confusion.

Confusion always sets in and quietly settles down in my space.

That's why, I wonder.

Confusion.

:)

3/11

Don't suppress your sadness.

Please don't.

It's killing me to see you do that.

Karma, I suppose?

:(

2/11

I don't know whether you'd still be reading this or not.

Writing to you from here seems to ease much of the burden I have.

Eventually, you'd always be somewhere nearby.

Thank you.

:)