So many conversations have been going on these few days.
I can't believe, still cannot, that my mum actually broke down like that in front of me. I thought I would be the one that would be doing the crying as I always do.
Not saying that I'm back to the "emo" person that I used to be.
Of course I have become more sensible and thoughtful.
忘了我，多难过多不能接受；
忘了我，只要你好过就足够。
Sunday, July 14, 2013
Monday, July 8, 2013
8/7/2013
Missed blogging.
Looking back, I have had the persistence to blog almost everyday at one point. ALMOST everyday! Sometimes I have 2 posts in a day, but I guess 2 was the most.
I won't say that I have been through a lot, but much enough for me to make sense of a bit of life.
It does not necessarily mean that you are going to be able to please everyone, including yourself, even when you try with your utmost effort to do so.
Life ain't easy, people are tougher to deal with.
I don't know whether this is the effect of influence or is it just my mental development?
I feel colder and more alienated from outside.
Many things that I have visualized myself to do, to conquer and to accomplish yet I have not.
If it was some time ago, I would end this post by saying "I miss you" or something that would make me smile, though I won't like the after effects of the memories that get triggered following the word.
I must move away from you. You may have brought me happiness, hope and strength. You may have been the person that I cared for most and vice versa.
I just can't bear looking into your eyes. Those eyes that yearn for affection and support.
I can give all that you need and that I wish you to have, firstly happiness.
It is never enough, when what you offer is no longer of interest to the second party.
Looking back, I have had the persistence to blog almost everyday at one point. ALMOST everyday! Sometimes I have 2 posts in a day, but I guess 2 was the most.
I won't say that I have been through a lot, but much enough for me to make sense of a bit of life.
It does not necessarily mean that you are going to be able to please everyone, including yourself, even when you try with your utmost effort to do so.
Life ain't easy, people are tougher to deal with.
I don't know whether this is the effect of influence or is it just my mental development?
I feel colder and more alienated from outside.
Many things that I have visualized myself to do, to conquer and to accomplish yet I have not.
If it was some time ago, I would end this post by saying "I miss you" or something that would make me smile, though I won't like the after effects of the memories that get triggered following the word.
I must move away from you. You may have brought me happiness, hope and strength. You may have been the person that I cared for most and vice versa.
I just can't bear looking into your eyes. Those eyes that yearn for affection and support.
I can give all that you need and that I wish you to have, firstly happiness.
It is never enough, when what you offer is no longer of interest to the second party.
Saturday, June 29, 2013
29/6
It's Saturday; marking the end of my 2nd week of internship training.
10 more to go!
I'm currently working in a cool company, working on drug discovery and screening.
It has been fine, at least I'm not the only intern around.
Things have been improving between me and P; we are talking a lot more and we are quite emotionally stable.
He never fails to put smiles on my face.
I miss you, already.
Working today, and you know how awful it is to miss a concert!
Boohoo.
10 more to go!
I'm currently working in a cool company, working on drug discovery and screening.
It has been fine, at least I'm not the only intern around.
Things have been improving between me and P; we are talking a lot more and we are quite emotionally stable.
He never fails to put smiles on my face.
I miss you, already.
Working today, and you know how awful it is to miss a concert!
Boohoo.
Thursday, May 23, 2013
23/5
So many things have been going out of hand recently.
It feels very insecure to to lose grip on practically everything.
You always say that I could choose to be happy.
But you never realized that sometimes, it takes more than a choice.
Circumstances.
Boy, would you understand one day that I will wait for you?
It feels very insecure to to lose grip on practically everything.
You always say that I could choose to be happy.
But you never realized that sometimes, it takes more than a choice.
Circumstances.
Boy, would you understand one day that I will wait for you?
Thursday, May 16, 2013
16/5
It has been a really long time.
Probably the reason of me being able to type fast is because I hate to miss out my thoughts.
My thoughts always work faster, DAYUM faster than my fingers so I always have to catch up with my thoughts.
Thoughts are really important to me, I don't exactly know why.
Today, I wrote at the positivism poster:
" You may leave now. I will keep our memories. Goodbye, Almost Lover. "
I hope I will stand by what I wrote - to allow you to leave. Or to escape, as you wish to.
You have gone away.
The way your eyes looks at me, however, still feels the same.
It is as though you still have so many unspoken words.
It hurts me to see you like that.
Gah. You will just prefer to not understand.
Probably the reason of me being able to type fast is because I hate to miss out my thoughts.
My thoughts always work faster, DAYUM faster than my fingers so I always have to catch up with my thoughts.
Thoughts are really important to me, I don't exactly know why.
Today, I wrote at the positivism poster:
" You may leave now. I will keep our memories. Goodbye, Almost Lover. "
I hope I will stand by what I wrote - to allow you to leave. Or to escape, as you wish to.
You have gone away.
The way your eyes looks at me, however, still feels the same.
It is as though you still have so many unspoken words.
It hurts me to see you like that.
Gah. You will just prefer to not understand.
Friday, May 3, 2013
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