30/12

two days left.

a lot of wishes are still left ungranted.

lol

but then.
never mind we can leave them to next year's pixies ~!

so
have a look back to this year
well this year was tiring. tough. and TERRIFIC. and TOUCHING. all at the same time.
yea

aikx sien liao
got a hell lot to crap but
sien liao
xD
bye

28/12

in ipoh now continuing with my post the other day.



so

its kinda boring here. you know, the people, the landscape. maybe i'm already used to the hectic lifestyle of penang.



i MISS penang now hahhahahhaa



so the first day was energetic. i mean when we were on the bus.

everybody was lk "zzzzz" whereas we were like " AAAAAAAA ~!!! LlalALLALlALlala! blAblABlABlablA!!!"

roflmao

WE consists of : xinrui, i, a xin, b xin, eunice, ah suat, yee jun













then we played lk hell all those stupid games

24/12

wow.
14days

A FORTNIGHT !!!!!!!!
i miss eu~~~~~~~
wakkakkaakakkakaaa

anyway BIG ANNOUNCEMENTS !!!!!!

1stly, MERRY XMAS EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU ALL ~!
2ndly, okay. i am NO santa but still i can _____ HO HO HO ! x)
3rdly, WE PCGHSCO ARE CHAMPIONS !!!!!!!!!! muakx muakx muakx
4thly, i have my own handphone number adee ! hahhaha ask me for it
5thly, ........ okay stop it. let's go random

the trip muahahhahahhahaa
well it's my 1st time to go out wif friends outstation.
so
the 1st day.
before departure i still rmb saying to jiahui :" i feel great cause i think i din leave anytg behind muahhahahhahha "
n then only i discovered i left behind my jacket.
MY HARD ROCK CAFE jacket. x(
okay continue another day wakkakkaka

10/12

waaaaaaaaaa.

cheesecake yummy =)
snacks great =]
missing you , sucks =(
the sinking sensation, gosh, it is horrifying. =[

ytd we went to dewan for.. rehearsal? i guess so
it felt stupid but i got burnt up when i saw many "outcomers" helping those ppl.
it's like. hello? u consider those "outcomers" as part of the school team?
gosh
fuck
i don't care now.

cause WE ! PCGHSCO can do it with our own strength and ability !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

muahhahahhahhahahhahahhahha

n OET
lol big pat on the shoulder for her
she suddenly regained her...confidence and the ability to come out with such awesome stuff
hhahahahahhaa

n JL.
hhahahhaha i was like. "??!!" oooo okay HI ~! when you beeped at me
x) lucky girl you .

n how on earth can you say im evil !
im an angel from above.
muahhahahhahahhahahhaha

it IS really coincidence that i have to leave on that very beautiful day
aikx

not my fault.

=)

and and !
i
created a new song.
it doesnt hv a name yet. but
here's how it sounds.

難道今生今世 不能愛你
就算靠近也要放棄
只能遠遠觀擦你的一舉一動
難道今生今世 不能愛你
就算可以也要放棄
我不相信世上沒有愛的真理

hhhahahaa.
nice?
i wrote it
based on
our relationship

miss you much babe.
x.o.x.o.

4/12

i'm like. so so SO SO sorry guys.
me bad
T_T


i....
was stupid.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
y did i let all those stupid stuff distract me????
WHY !!!!!!!!!!!

oh
hw i wish you were thr for me to hold whn i ..
whn i most needed you
x(

nah u dun even care.
u dun mind wat happens to me
but darling.
i still
do love you .

x.o.x.o.

2/12

gosh it is already 2nd !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
of DECEMBER. wat the fuck

and me holidays.
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
die =)
neeways i REALLY hope we could go out. xDi nvr really saw the way u walk xD
hahhahahahaa

farewell is like 2days ahead n im BOOMED

ooooo i tot of the song.

boom-de-ya-da boom-de-ya-da.................

hahahhahhahahhahahha

hv a nice day
imy.ily.iny. darling
mwahs

28/11

I LOVE HARRY ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

mWAH MWAH MWAH X)
im SOOOOOO jealous wif ginny.
but but but !

YOU still come BEFORE harry wakakakakakakakaka

i miss you like crazy babe ~

wakkkakkakakkaka..

neeway weird things happen everywhere.
n farewell ! oh. gosh

=)

love you ^^

yea yea happie burfdae juan

26/11

i miss you .

a lot

whn she told me i was like

" oh my gawd ! X) i knew you were gonna think of me someday, somehow . YESH ~! "

n my heart was thumping hahhahaha

LORVE you mwahxx

i VOW to get it to you darling =)

darling, n from today onwards, you shall be mine XD

22/11

MUNDANE

okay i plan to repost since i have time

tragically speaking

i barely have time for my own which is.....

harsh?

speaking of time.

coming across my brain again is FAREWELL!

it''s coming up in like...12 days ?!

wat the

hope everythg'll b in good order at least

and the song

the freaky stupid song is EMBARASSING me

well i jz cant conjure anythg better

hahhahahhahaa

forgive me for me randomness and siao-nesss

i miss S4E
it was the greatest class i've ever had.
bravo to all of you .

^^

and yes yes. i'll miss all our teachers.


so many stuff has happened this year.

our first sight.
your first birthday wish to me through phone.
the first time i get to hear of your stuff from other people.
the first time i seem to get a closer peek at your whacky behaviors.
the first ever time i came SO close to you.
the first time , i can miss you so real-ly.

x)

nanananananannananannanananannanaa

22/11mundane

11/11

wooooooot
11/11

=)

finally
all the sunshine can come through already
without the shades of sad clouds
i can see clearly and once again feel i'm alive

^^

i miss you a lot

SPM ppl

GAMBATTEHHHHH~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

muahahhahahahhahaha

best of luck X)

8/11

OMG look at the date gap since i've last posted

X(

neewaysss
congratx for those who have FINISHED their examS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

n those who haven't YET (including me of coz X( )
PIA PIA PIA !
hhahahahaa
altho im left with no more energy to pia

aaaaa

jane
im gonna miss u so much darling
=(

lol
i duno
but
jr told me a lot of things
n i seeem to be a bisexual
hahhahahhaa

OMG
but my bisexual is a .........
EXTRAORDINARY case?
LOL

physics totally KILLED me
it RAVAGED me
=(

OKAY i dn wanna talk abt it anymore
PYCHAN
u killed me

chemistry was tough
bm was tough

wat on earth is mencopet
i dun CARE now

NONSENSE NONSENSE

katy perry
YAY ~ all hail katy !!!!!!!!!!!
hahhahhahaaha

signing off

byeeeee

17/10

imagine
it's alrd 17th n
im still in chaos !
hhahahhahaaa

i don't know but it's like a sudden downfall in my life
i feel
GREY

is it the absence of you in my life that makes me feel this way ?

well
i tried to tell myself to stop depending on you
cause you make me go like ... SAHAM ! X(

but
nah it DOESN"T work. XD

neeways,
sy's birthday is coming up n NAH she wun b free to read this post =)
thinking wat to get for her hmmmmm

ive been thinking a lot lately
AND AND i watched twilight's OFFICIAL new trailer AGN last nite
hahhahahhahaa

EDWARD YOU'RE DAMM HOT

=)

lol
honestly you DO look cute in the student photo hhahahahhaha

but u're still
my star =)

ily. ^^

people. get your butts of this chair.
go stick your eyes to books. bye =)

5/10

WE ROCK

han chiang guys WE ROCK =)
kimmmy firstly i wana say sorry.
err i was kinda busy until i ALMOST 4got abt the date we have. hahhaha
the whole thing started out great.
jane got the laptop, the wecam, the mic
i had the modem the line
BUT
then..we Couldn't connect the line to jane's laptop.
asked pro. jazz to help n thn pro. yzc to help
but still
gahhhhhhhhhhhhh

thn
BO HUAT
had to use the old style.
COMPUTER X(
so we unplugged the cable, replug the cable to the com
BUT (agn)
gahhhhhhhhh
the computer is SO laggy =.=
sorry didn't actually give you something that's THAT good.
gahhhhhhhhhh
me bad

neeways.
jz tuh tell you.
we ALL miss you ^^
BFFL ~

n dennis. i actually feel bad. the push was errrrrrr an involuntary action XD
n anyone who has photos plz send them to me asap ! XD

############################################################

aaaaaaaa
okiie so long din post abt you liao
hhahaaaha
aikx
you
became quiet
or is it because our distance has became further apart?
i'm so scared
scared of the one day
when you will totally forget me
when you will totally ditch me out of your life.

sigh *
why
sometimes i think
would it be better if i've NEVER known you ?
would it be better if you've never appeared in my life?

but WAIT !
if that happened!
gahhhh
then i'll have nothing to hold on !
X.X
goshhh
i guess you really put a curse on me

i don't know for suree but i really think that you're somehow driving me nuts
or at least HALF- nuts
oo
at least it feels good to be driven NUTS by you

hahhhahaha
sometimes i feel
that what we think is't really what we think
but actually what we think what we're thinking
you get the idea?
like
errrrrrrrrrrrr
nope. you have to figure it out yourself nyahahhahahaha

i'm sitting here staring at my keyboard.
thinking of you.
thinking of the POssibilities
n IMpossibilities
aikx
seems like the IM outnumber the PO always

aaaaaaaaaa
just.
i love you =)
remember
i'll be always here if you ever need me

29/9

i can't believe the speed of time is actually shocking me this much
another eye blink
and next year
we're all going to part !
X(
well
never mind

SO THIS IS WHERE THE GATHERING KICKS IN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yea baby ________________________ !!!!!!! i rock X)
nah..
okayyyyyyyy
we're gonna have one this saturday
HOLY this is SO dammn exciting !
hahhahahhahaha

neeways
still cracking my head to think of interesting things for the party =)
n probably some gifts
hahhahahhahahhahhahahaa
rmbguys
4/10 6-10 pm theme:green potluck my house
YAY
anticipation is wat's killing me
nyaahhahahhahahhahaa

24/9

now this song has made me go "crakcers"
well well.
i have a hectic few days ahead i guess !
tomorrow - chemistry. soluble salt pembentangan.
- piano class.
friday - EST n stupid she-man sivik class. means i have to wake up EXTRA early n go to the EXTRA stupid she-man's EXTRA boring EXTRA subject class. =.=
saturday - huayue.
- micelleanous.
sunday - calligraphy.

then where's the time for study?
where's the time for farewell stuff !
where's the time for piano practise!
where's the time to look for you !

BUT i still have time to daze and think of ur face.
think of what you've always said.
think of you =)
jiahui is such a meanie to post that video or show it to junhui .
a video about me. doing something stupid but if you watch closely you can make out that i'm actually CONDUCTING X)
p/s: i look like a dumb elephant walking in the vid so plz stop urself from laughing IF you guys get the chance to see that vid.

well anyways.
the spot check that recently just happened was kind of chaotic.
p/sL: dudes you should see things from my class. they were like in HAVOC ! although those classes who kena DID NOT ( repeating ) DID NOT kena my class.
s4d lol i've heard quite some hiding tactics from a lot of frens.

but i still don't understand.
WHY WON'T YOU FALL FOR ___________
okay fine i'm gonna explode.

lalalalalalalalaa~
i dont understand
m i going through a stage of obsession ?
it's like everywhere i go i think of XXX
n whenever i see XXX i feel nervous.
maybe it's just bcz i dont know what to say to XXX bcz i feel uncertain about XXX
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAa i hate this

lalalalalallalallalallalalallalaa__________________

g2g sleep nitexxxxx

23/9

HAPPIE BURFDAE sulynn =)

kay
listen out dear han chiang ppl !
there's gonna be a gathering on 2/10
at MY house. XD
errrr it's gonna b a BBQ party.
details will b further discussed =)

neeeeeeeewaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
LORVE YOU X)
although we're never gonna b together but
lalala
you still make me smile
you still make me feel warm whenever i think of you
thanks to you
my life is better ^^
hearts you <3

21/9

actually it's close to 22/9 d.

n
happiiiie burfdae in advance to siew fern xD

errrrrrrrrrrrrr
today
i've accomplished ONE thing that i'm proud of. XD
that is ____________________ [drum rolls ] finished revising my 名句精华！！
lol
is that considered ONE big thing?
cz i nvr really liked chinese.

well
have been thinking over the stuff
the TRUTH
the INCONVENIENT TRUTH

i still can't get the FACT that she's really such a person.

such a FAD DISGUSTING person.

such a ROTTEN stuff.

such a HORRIBLE mortal.

><

im like so sad.

WHY DOES THE TRUTH NEED TO HURT SO MUCH !!!!!

i keep telling myself

" NO it's NOT true. they're just having a misconception!

they've just misunderstood her !

they're misinterpreted her !"

but

NO

my tears still fell

my heart still throbbed

my head still banged.

why !

why could you do things like that !

i have hope on you !

and now !
aikx

T_T

aikx

i really do hope that things will get better

and yOU !

aaaaa thank god u've finally written a longer one !

n i feel SATIATED. XD

maybe this is really a sign !?

lolers

15/9

woooot.

missss u so badly. X(
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh nvm. i know u miss me too. =)

omg. T^T no u DO NOT.
neeway did i mention earlier that i
PASSED MY GRADE 8 ALREADY ?!!??!?!!

hahhahhahai tot i would FAIL. it was like THAT close to failing. hahhahhahahha
i stammered that day. i can't believe i was actually LATE. =.=

jingru. you DO have jampi. aikx
well. i couldn't dismiss the fact that she's got my attention in some way. but BUT ! errrrrr.... i'm not entirely " struck in the nerves " like jingru.

LOL. omg. help. i dun wanna be like jingru. hahhahhahaa
showing below is the song i'm taking for my diploma. XD

PATHETIQUE SONATA 3RD MOVEMENT by Ludwig van Beethoven =)

aerogel. lol 13/9 (2)

13/9

firstly, happiie burfdae to LPT. the one n only lpt. [mind you, his name is SO close to mine--- LPQ ] lmao

secondly, lol i dun think he does not access to the internet so . OMG his mom called n i was like. " err... do i KNOW you in detail actually? "
hahhahhahahha

lol
he's kind of a weirdo. BUT attractive. XD

today i tot we had quite a nice pratice.

EUNICE GAMBATEH___________!

12/9

So much food, So little stomach.
So big the world, So little are us.
So vast the land, So little we can travel.
So far the distance, but from so far only can i watch you.
So much love, but only for you !

hahhahhahaa
i've got my piano exam results. which kind of ceremoniously put a COMMA to my Eighth grade.
DIPLOMA HERE I COME !!!!!!!
yay___________________________________________________________

9/9

If only I could. then i certainly Would.
If I could have you then my day will no longer be blue.
If I could have you by my side then my feelings could be alright

[yes you are reading the continuation of 5/9's post. xD]

errrrrrrrrrrrrrr. suddenly have no more ilham. xD
aikx

go on to the new post. hahahhahhahahaa

Standing here Fighting fear Blocking away my tears
You walked away I was to stay You said that it was Okay
The pain I endure No one can cure
Why would you break me again?
Built me up with hope Tore me down again
Why do you drive me insane?
You're so unfair to me
You make wanna flee
The future I just can't see
You're so unfair to me
You're like strangling me
Why don't you just take me
Away Take me away
I've always thought I've always fought my feelings within
Away
I want to care I want to share
All of my feelings with you
But you were not there
You wouldn't care
You're just so far away from me
Everytime I cry
I just imagined you were there
And things would've been better
You're so unfair to me
Why is it hard to be?


hahhaahhaa

miss you much.
x.o.x.o.

5/9

aikx

If only I could. then i certainly Would.
If I could have you then my day will no longer be blue.
If I could have you by my side then my feelings could be alright

errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
bed time-y.

xD

post the continuation some other day. xD
buhbyiiiie

heart you =)

1/9

好久沒有用華語寫部落格了.
有一點不爽漢語拼音. XD
今天突然想起你了.
胸口的悶.使我想起當天你對我說過的話.
啊.
你怎麼可以那麼的平靜?
你過得還好嗎?
你一定很好吧.因為我知道你是天塌下來都不會擔心的傢伙.
一個多麼堅強的人也會有軟弱的一天.
一個每天開心的人也會有悲伤的一天.
但是.你要知道.一旦喜歡上你,就不會停止.












算了.不要在說那些了.哈哈 笑一笑,真的会沒事嗎?
我不懂.或許笑只能掩飾,只能騙人.

31/8

lallalallalallalala

going to the beach later on ! XD
syiok syiok syiok sipek syiok !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lalalallalallallala
i get to BULLY my sister's friends. YAY_______________________________
innocent children. hhahahahahahahha

neeways. I LORVE PINK!!!!!!!!!!!!!

all hail PINK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

just watch her video and you'll know XD

30/8

MERDEKA !! MERDEKA !! MERDEKA !!

okay. this topic is considered ... COLD?
lol i dun see any BIG things going on the roads. i dont see any BIG slogans.
i DID see quite BIG stuff at my school though!
hahhahhahaa

kasvini! u guys did GREAT___! superb.
neeways.
i know THREE people who r sharing a birthday today. XD


1. TRACY TAN TZE THONG. my ex-classmate.



2. sing yee's brother. zZzZzzZ hahhaha dn even know him



3. MY DADDDIIIIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEEEE YAY =)


happiie burfdae dadddddddyyyy
mwarhxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

neeways. we're going to the beach 2mr. as CELEBRATION.
nah
nt celebration for MERDEKA DAY.
but for my DADDDDYYY

XD
XD
XD
syiokkkkkkkk
hahahahhahhahahahhaahaha


and and and !
i skipped huayue today.
cz im down with fever. XD

27/8

2day is like
like wat that lady said " HORRIBLE TERRIBLE and..and..AND VEGETABLE aAA!"
hhahahhaa
okay
i rmb watching this movie which made me cry over n over again.
it's called "ARMAGEDDON".
for those who've never watched this movie. i bet on you this a one-of-a-kind movie you'll never catch elsewhere.
n the SONG
omfg. it's so damn DAMN NICE!!!!!!!!!!!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
i could stay awake, just to hear you breathing~
watch you smile when you're sleeping.
while you're far away and dreaming ~
omg if anyone ever says THAT to me.
gosh i wud die for him no matter how many times.
hahhahahhahahahhahahhaa
it's lk SO DAMN TOUCHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i could spend my life in this sweet surrender~
i could stay lost in this moment forever~
every moment spent with you is a moment i treasure
BEAUTFUL~~~~~~~~~~
aaaaaaaaaaaaaa
if only i could tell it to you straight away.
i love you

25/8

okay
tonight is like quiet
i would like to fetch some time to talk about last nite's Beijing Olympic's Closing Ceremony.
errrrrrrrrr
i din reali enjoy it.
i personally think that the fire extinguishing part was like.. too abrupt?
i totally ENJOYED the opening. i even thought " i wud not regret to die immediately ! " stupid.
bt closing cermeony. eeeeerrrrr. as a lot of ppl discussed this on the radio. they all said " disappointed .. disappointed "
but actually !
have everybody thought of the efforts Beijing has put in to make this olympic a success!?
if you really are so great ! come and organize it la !
all rite that feels much better . hhaa
everybody. that DETERMINATION imprinted on china ppl's faces. THAT'S CHINA SPIRIT !!!!!!!!!!!!
GO GO CHINA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 中国最棒！！！
errrrrrrrrrrr
im nt feeling quite well today.
bt say liao also no use cz nobody cares ! HA!

24/8

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

let me breathe
omgggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hw long has it been since i've last posted?
okay. approximately ONE WEEK
gosh
okay im gonna ask the same question again!
did anybody miss me !
ha! no.

so this whole holiday was like.
oooooooooooooooooooooooooo CRAZY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
0.0 wtf
hhhahhahahha
neeeeeeeeway . had a smashing birthday
n school's reopening !
omg
my hair xD
neeway we had a nice time at little cottage did we dear?
XD
lorveeeee u ~
XD
altho we all stammered when paying for it! hahhahhahahhaha
it was a success. aaaaaaaaaa
a glorious page in my life.
u all made it possible !
mwarhxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx lover u darling

my birthday vid

omg

damn it!

lorve you km !!!!!!!!!!!

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

thanks SO SO S O MUCHIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!

=)

17/8

okiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiie

guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! today is my birthday eve!!
im so close to you !! so close to you 16 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
nyahahhahahhahhahaaa

im gona b SIXTEEN!!!!!!!!
big deaL!
yay______________!!!!!!!
=)

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

okie back here.
i wana share wif u guys another song which i think the lyrics r DAMN touchy

天黑了孤独又慢慢割着 有人的心又开始疼了 爱很远了很久没再见了 就这样竟然也能活着 你听寂寞在唱歌轻轻的狠狠的 歌声是这么残忍让人忍不住泪流成河 谁说的人非要快乐不可好象快乐由得人选择 找不到的那个人来不来呢我会是谁的谁是我的 你听寂寞在唱歌轻轻的狠狠的 歌声是这么残忍让人忍不住泪流成河 你听寂寞在唱歌温柔的疯狂的 悲伤越来越深刻怎样才能够让它停呢 你听寂寞在唱歌轻轻的狠狠的 歌声是这么残忍让人忍不住泪流成河 你听寂寞在唱歌温柔的疯狂的 悲伤越来越深刻怎样才能够让它停呢 你听寂寞在唱歌轻轻的狠狠的 歌声是这么残忍让人忍不住泪流成河 你听寂寞在唱歌温柔的疯狂的 悲伤越来越深刻谁能帮个忙够让它停呢 天黑得像不会再天亮了 明不明天也无所谓了 就静静的看青春难依难舍 泪还是热的泪痕冷了

aikxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
we're meeting
AGAIN
XD
yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
=)
hello 16 buhbyiie 15!

14/8

okay
tonight is rather a lonely night for me.
actuali nah
i kinda enjoyed myself at my piano class.
hhaha weiting silly weiting.
lol he's nice to watch sumtimes
well
birthday's coming up
DONT SAY I DIN REMIND YOU HA!
XD
lol
i dno wat im doing currently
honest!
it's as if all the things have gone out of the USUAL track.
withoutme knowing exactly why
hhaaha
okay
im drowning
this time i believe
IN HAPPINESS!!!
XD
aaa
aikxxxxxxxxx
missss u lotssss
xD
mwarhxx

9/8

have u ever saw ur own true love being someone else's
tht hurts a lot, more than a lot, when u're d third party
u dun even knoe d meaning of love
until u found this fellow
thn u start to think
wat both of wanna do, nx time when u're together
u start to build castles in d air
nt knowing ur mom is alrd calling u frm d kitchen
nt knowing u're still sitting 'here'
instead of being 'there' with tht special person
but sometimes
we shud reali try n think frm a different perspective
maybe i shud let him go
maybe he'll find hIS true love
maybe he'll b happier than he will with me
maybe he'll love her more than he'll love me

"maybe he'll happy"
n tht's all tht matters
A L L

n sometimes, not reali sometimes..but A L L T H E T I M E
i break down n cry under my blankets..
learning tht i'm nt protected by his caress n his love
learning tht i shud walk away frm his life
bcz he'll only hate me if i keep sticking to him
n i dun wanna make him hate me
yes, i knoe
i knoe love is painful
love is killing
love
but love is such a beatiful thing
a gift frm God
a miracle
a sacred matter
tht is so hard to let go of
n i saw this article
saying that
" it's not time tht washes away the pain u're enduring
its LOVE "
n it chged my point of view

9/8

today

aaaaaaaaaaaaa slept 3am++ last nite
so on my way home i was fast asleep ALREADY
xD

eeeeeeeeek still cant finish my score.
guess i dn get to sleep tonight agn. xD

neeways. we r hving a CHINESE ORCHESTRA performance at PCGHS school hall at 23/8, 7.30 pm
whoever interested please inform me. ticket price: RM 10.

plz support!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

5/8

woke up relatively late. preferred to stay home. xD

anyway im working on orchestral scores.

Joe Hisashi. guys, prefer 1. Princess Mononoke or 2. Howl's Moving Castle. ?

aikx
i frankly DONT KNOW
hhahahhahaha
but i'll try my best in those scores. starting to freak me out
lolers
i guess busy days r coming back post-exam. at high speed !
hahhahaha
listening to Joe Hisashi now. he's great. tauntively AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!
i wonder how on earth cn he conjure so many things from his bald head.
he's one of a kind. magnificent________
hate schooling days.
i wANNA PRACTISE MY PIANO
exam's coming up________!!!!!!!
im lk dying.
ELEK
now out of a sudden i miss you like hell.
i want you so badly.
i want you to just be here for me to hug. just to soothe me. just to say " it's okay. i'm here "
aaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
how nice would that be?!
i know you want a person to do that to you too. but unfortunately that person will never be ME
it will never.
WHY!
errrrrrrrrrr.... can i say ------ I DUNO?!
lol
i do know. i DO
bcz im a frantic person.
im psycho.
im stupid.
im fat.
im ugly.
im a MORON.
im... im.......someone you never think of when you think things.
whereas you
you're always here. wherever you go
i carry you
in a barrier
that will always keep you safe
in my heart.
but do you ever know?
ha fine
you never know.
GEEZ i never knew you were so hard to get.
maybe i'll never get to you
i just want to
be there for you when you need somebody.
i just want you to know
I MISS YOU!

3/8

ok actually im laziie to post but.

HAPPIE BURFDAE AARON ______ in advance. XD

ok get back to the topic. im lazziiie. XD
buhbyiiiiie

31/7

omg a full 16days since i've last posted. hah
happie belated burfdae peiying ____ !!

yesterday was probably the worst day. i missed my BIO paper. T____T
doctor said i probably had APPENDICITIS! omg. he's hysterical. hw one arth wud i hv that!

hahhahaha. neeway good luck for those hving exams! buhbyiiiiiiiie tIRED.

15/7

the day started drowsily
hahhahaha
no rumah sukan today. -----------yay--------------
scrambled on pieces of hmwrk 2day . yet nt enuff to free myself for the whole day.
still...... copy
hahhahhahaha i guess it's normal. errrrrrr rite? hahhahha
today was ok la
well i was thinking of you all the while
but suddenly i thought.
hey, you were there for me when i really needed you.
so why can't i pretend that you're here now?
hahhahah
i feel stupid of that thought. but hey ! why not?
but then i thought
you never thought of me did you?
omg
that hurt me a lot
but.
you WERE there for me. atleast you were. i miss you shoulder. i miss your soothing power.i miss you a lot
^^
but i know one day, as you predicted, you will fall for me. muahahhahhahahhaha nah jz jokin.
xD

12/7

很想跟你说
我很幸福
虽然 你不是我的邻居
但是 至少我知道
你已经很靠近我了
虽然 我们之间有一段距离
但是 至少我知道
我已经把你放在我的心里 紧紧贴着
虽然 我不在你的身边
但是 至少我知道
你过得很开心
虽然 没有你的日子 总会好像少了些什么
但是 至少我知道
虽然 我们各在一方
但是 至少我知道
我们可以 呼吸一样的空气 感受一样的阳光 看到一样的月光 活在一样的世界上
哈哈。
我总觉得自己好笨
为什么会这么在意你？为什么要那么紧张你？
为什么总是不能把你忘掉？
为什么要用很多时间来告诉自己不要再想你？
为什么在自己想你的时候告诉自己不要想你？
已经说好不要想你了。怎么还会在现在又在想起你？
没用的家伙。
你白痴。
虽然 你从来没有在乎过我
但是 至少我知道
我还是很感谢 所有你对我说过的话 所有令我振奋起来的话 所有鼓励我的话 所有为我加油的话 所有骂我的话
你说过
“你不是懦弱！ 你只是一时颓丧。”
“用爱，去包容你的敌人；用爱， 去珍惜你的朋友们。”
“你要好好的过。前方还有一条很长的路让你走。”
“我会成为你的支柱。就算有一天我倒塌了我也要你好好的活着！”
“就算世界上所有的人都不要你了， 所有人都不爱你了， 深个呼吸， 抱着你自己， 对自己说你还爱着你自己。”
“哥一直都在。”
“需要我就叫我吧。我随时都在。”
你既然明知道我喜欢你
为什么还要给我那么多希望？
还要给我那么多空间去想象？！
你在不断的杀死我
一次又一次又一次。。
但是我每当想起你
我就会
“好好的活下去了。”
哈哈
投诉你真爽
XD
快点打喷嚏吧！ ^^

6/5

nervousness is exactly wat im feeling rite nw. OMG y does tomorrow has to come so fast! ahh
if i was told earlier i wud b able to lose some weight, which is obviously too late now. hhahahha

nvm. we'll give it our best shot tomorrow. XD

加油华乐团~！！！！！！！！我爱你~~~~~~~~----------------

30/6

OMG. how long has it been since i've blogged! omfg zomg.
ok i knw..i knw..i knw.. NOBODY missed me. hahha.
skool days are getting ridiculously busy n rushy. i seem to have alrd lost myself.
i wish i had someone to blame.
ok take it this way. I BLAME YOU.
you gave me a sleepless night.
you gave me a freaky nightmare.
ohmygod. i dn raeli wana talk abt it. bt the more i dn wana talk abt it, the more i wana talk abt it.
OHWTF BLAME YOU for making me go crazy like this.
you caused me to not know wat i'm talking all the time.
you cause me to not know wat i do all the time.
you cause me to feel lost.
you cause me to feel i have to , HAVE TO rely on you.
you cause me to go like. CUCKOO!
you cause me to go crazy . crazy OVER you.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
stop torturing me like this.
that dream. aikxx i dun wana go through that.
you. you two were so close. omg. u treat me like..a friend who is more than a friend but not as much as a lover. like a real girl. you treat her so well! omg. you made me damn jealous.
in the whole dream i was like. STOP DOING THAT IN FRONT OF ME. you held her hand. you looked her so DEEP in her eyes. omg you're KILING ME! you hugged her.
*takes in a deeap breath in case im gona faint*
wei. hv u ever tot of me? i was so sad in both the dream n also now. sniffles. i killed myself in that dream. you never took notice of my disappearance n din even come to my funeral.
u knw how hurt i was?
although it was just a dream but i was starting to think. maybe it's time we shd say goodbye to each other.
but.
I CANT!!!!!!!
you know why?
bcz you've got that gooey-poison STUCK DOWN MY THROAT. tht stupid potion.
AAAAAAAAAAAARGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
weiii u knw how much i need you eh bo?
i know la u. "i duno."
weiiiii u knw hw much i really like you ?
i also know. " i duno. and i dun care cz i hv sum1 else to like. shoo."
weiiii u knw hw much i've fallen into you?
i know. " i duno. but i dun care also. go away. "
weiiiii u knw u mean the world to me?
" i duno a thing . get away . SHOO"

14/6

let me rate today.

5 STAR-------------

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahhahhahaaa
we GOT THROUGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! finals..... we're coming ! lol
ZANARKAND_________ WE CAN DE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lol im going siao d. ahhahhahahhahaa.
2mr i'l see him ! lol. im lk so so SO SO panicky. but this has hpned lk. over the years ! hahha he doesn't like me pun. y bother!
lol
im going out of my mind.
ZOMG im lk falling for huayue once again. lol

槟华女中华乐团__________我爱你们！！！！！！！！
hhahahahaha. YOU CAN~

mwaRhx.
WEI can anybody save me ! im falling deeper n deeper for him. aikx. STOP me
help

2day ive been listening to another song.

Prison gates won't open up for me

On these hands and knees

I'm crawlin'

Oh, I reach for you

Well I'm terrified of these four walls

These iron bars can't hold my soul in

All I need is you

Come please I'm callin'

And oh,

I scream for you

Hurry I'm fallin', I'm fallin'

Show me what it's like

To be the last one standing

And teach me wrong from right

And I'll show you what I can be

Say it for me

Say it to me

And I'll leave this life behind me

Say it if it's worth savin' me

Heaven's gates won't open up for me

With these broken wings

I'm fallin'

And all I see is you

These city walls ain't got no love for me

I'm on the ledge of the eighteenth

oh, I scream for you

Come please

I'm callin'

And all I need from you

Hurry I'm fallin', I'm fallin'

Show me what it's like

To be the last one standing

And teach me wrong from right

And I'll show you what I can be

Say it for me

Say it to me

And I'll leave this life behind me

Say it if it's worth savin' me

Hurry I'm callin'

And all I need is you

Come please I'm callin'

And oh, I scream for you

Hurry I'm fallin', I'm fallin', I'm fallin'

Show me what it's like

To be the last one standing

And teach me wrong from right

And I'll show you what I can be

And say it for me

Say it to me

And I'll leave this life behind me

Say it if it's worth savin' me

Hurry I'm fallin'

And say it for me

Say it to me

And I'll leave this life behind me

Say it if it's worth savin' me.

xD enjoy ur day. thx MF

hahhahaaha

buhbyiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiie_________________ DUN MISS ME wakakakkaka

11/6

Nobody. Nobody can picture just how happy i am now. A few words from you can make me jolt up and be delighted such a way. How wonderful to have you in my life. I never felt this way before. It is not exactly strange but, familiar! Like the time we first we met. Like the first time we discovered how similiar we were. If you could stay by me for the days to come, i would need no other things to be as happy as I am now. You could could make me feel this extraordinary way. Only you. lol. It makes me crave for sleeping pills. Ya, just for the night being. haha. Life is starting to be filled with uncertainties. Is it because the life too hectic? Or is it merely because we THINK or PICTURE life as "too hectic"? I don't have the faintest idea! But you, You came back into my life and ensured me thaat life isnt' THAT bad anyways. Your laugh , ah, how dearly i miss is ! Your perspective, Your way of thinking. It's all starting to come back to me. As if I've known you for so long. SO long. The picture of you I always bore along with me, wherever I go. The next time I see you, I won't shut my eyes, cause I'm afraid your face I will forget. I've tried, tried so hard to put away my feelings towards you. But I just can't. I tugged myself into my blanket and slammed my head into the pillow and forced my eyelids to drop shut and threw my bolster on top of me, but I still find no means of sleep. I think of you. oh my god it's as if you've POSSESSED my soul. omg. XD How good will it be if I could face all those problems I will endure in the future in this joyous manner ! I've wondered, are you really the source of my true happiness or maybe just an overdosage of Felix Felicis that will wear out soon? I was really happy and i felt as if I would never be sad again! Yes i will work hard. will do as you say. You may never know how much you mean to me cause I dont's know for myself. if there is a limit to numbers, it would be THAT much. if there is a limit to the universe, it would be THAT much. You let me feel that there is always hope and warmth. They're standing there, you just need a guide to take your hand and lead you there. Perhaps that CRAZINESS and HAPPINESS I experienced just before I started writing is a rush of both hope and warmth. It's true. You're the first person that comes to my mind whenever I need someone to help me, to listen to me, to share my problems with , to share my happiness with. THIS IS NO JOKE. YOU!! listen. I dreamt the wldest dreams because I've got the guts. One day, I'll Dream of me getting your heart. BEWARE you'll fall for me xD. And remember, the next time you sneeze, I'm one of those people who are missing you dearly. x.o.x.o.

8/6

OMFG
ZOMG
OMG
school is REOPENING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARHHHHHHHHHHHHH-------------------------------------------------------------------

god DAMnniT. T_T
everyone=====wishing you a good first-day-back-at-school. XD

buhBYiIee

7/6

i was thinking. deeply. of all those stuff that kept popping up these few days. lk in movies " a lot of things have happened and i seem to lose control of all things " . gosh gosh gosh.
and you replied me. AT LAST. like after 100000000000 YEARS after ive smsed you. goddamnit. is it so hard to reply me?? but hearing wat it's been like from your words is .. somewhat .. .. er .. tranquilizing. shall i say that! lol
you know just how much i miss you . HOW much. i always had flashbacks of how close both of us were. and i almost wished i never told you. but , i told you anyway. and whether you like it or not, i still like you . so much--- hahha. gosh you really gave me like fantasies and dreams and nightmares. cause i really dreamt of me commiting suicide in front of you because i couldn't take it that you are " in a relationship ". to be honest, i was like. OMFG. how on earth could you!
but then. this person in my head told me : hey he doesn't care! he doesn't care how much you miss him and love him and need him and adore him. he's happy the way his life is now. he doesnt know that you actually were a fool . he doesnt know that you cry because of him. he doesnt know he's hurt you. he doesnt know that your heart has been totally torn apart by him. nah, he doesn't know you love him.
so today, i listened to a song which quite fitted hw i was feeling.

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do
It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and
I’m alone
Still
Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk awayAnd never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

p/s: i love you

5/6

5/6 ----- 22/6 's tickets rise to RM25.
4/6 ----- all petrol stations are flocked with desparate motorists who are DYING to have a pump which WILL save them RM 30-80 after the rise to RM2.7/litre. wow that's a lot. and not forgetting... MICKY"S BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
3/6 ----- first annivesary of 龙吟.
2/6 ----- nishie's birthday.n being sick. X.X
1/6 ----- EuniCe's birthday. hahhaha muakx dar
n i predict 6/6 is gonna be a BUSY busy day. okay. AS usual. 8-5pm 华乐 n then 6-8pm piano. wooo kewl

it's been so long since i've blogged. do you guys miss me?
i don't know why but, things have slightly altered in my life. it's like i've stepped into a new stage of my life and am being to lose control of things i used to have control. example: my life. lol
actually is being 15++ so...fun? i see a lot of people hanging around in malls ( okay teenagers of my age ) and i start to wonder ...
1. is it just me being rushy n hectic n busy all the time?
2. OR is it them being SO free. i dno. i myself, AM confused.
they seem to like have time to go to gurney practically every weekend whereas i have to really plan AHEAD to get a weekend to spend in gurney.
gosh my life is getting pathethic!
im lk god damn bloody envious of those who can have time to stick with whoever they want to, whenever they want to and wherever they go without worrying about time.
can someone tell me. is form 4 really driving me nuts or what? im going out of my mind. i hope, SOON.
arggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
today at huayue was nice. QUITE at least. some people done great jobs ( credits goes to 笛子&笙 XD ) yet some ignore. X.X wakey wakey~!!
neeway. i cant blif i was like SO indulged watching that person. it' s like that person is creating such a powerful magnetic force field that i can't help myself from being dragged towards. i had pictures in my mind like deja vus. yes ray, deja vus. aikx why in this time you come into my life? i wish i had time. aikxx

gotta go sleep. buhbyiiiie

27/5

i HATE being sick. ERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRrrrrrrrrr-------

so FINALLY im back to blogspot. shall i say this? ok ------ YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!
hahhahhaa exam's drove me crazy. blame them. honestly why must ppl put us through this kind of
FOIL
HEAT
PIQUE
ANGER
HAVOC
MISERY
VEXATION
HARDSHIP
IRRITATION
ANNOYANCE
RESENTMENT
INDIGNATION
DISPLEASURE
DEVASTATION
EXASPERATION
n left my life in ruins. hahhahahha

watever we're all glad it's over rite? lol results = to worry later on.
n thn as usual, my holidays r screwed up agn. hahhaha. cant reali say it's bad la. bt.. i hv my plans also ! aikx nvm la

since we had our exams in the hall things were quite nervous-ish. u can see those HAWK-like people always peering at you making you unable to construe what we have already acknowledged into those pages and pages of seems-to-be-never-ending paper.
how much i wish to be a connnoisseur. or bcm perhaps an imvincible book memorizer. lol
neeway it's OVER ~`` i dn care. it's over hahhaha

lol
see la i 4got wat i wanted to talk abt alrd. nvm nvm dn b desparate. 2 weeks of holiday. i'll be crapping non-stop i hope. XD

bUHbyIiE fOr now. ^^

10/5

shyte shyte im in deep DEEP DEEP DEEP trouble~~~~~~~~

muahhahahhahaa

countdown 2 days to 1st day of exam. BC n SEJARAH. yAIkX.

lol lol lol lol lol lol
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im going crazy XD

wei he reali lk me meh? no gua.. i so..bullshit face lol

neeway to all hving exams out there... GOOD LUCK !!!!!

n to ex-hc ppl im thinkning of gathering this holiday. want go? drop ur suggest dates in comments la. thx
lol hv to go back study liao. actuali wanted to post more but .... NO TIME !!!!! f*ck
love u~ xD

#*~QI~*#

17/4

YAY~~~ i finally can play it alrd~!!!! weiting...muahahahaa..i'll catch up with you ! XD

today is practically n overall-ly.. NICE lo.

hhahaha bt as usual i stil hv a lot of UNfinished hmwrk.

dn worry. today i had a tournament wif SHInrain. LOL badminton. lol she still crashed mie.

n YOU . lol i dont care. i dont care who the heck is hanging out with you nor who the heck you like. cause..... I LIKE YOU! ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~~~!!!!!

=P

lol im going siao~~~

bt still.. i miss you much!

mwarhx!

so......this song. LOL

Hey Hey You You I dont like your girlfriend No way No way I think you need a new one Hey Hey You You I could be your girlfriend Hey Hey You You I know that you like me No way No way No its not a secret Hey Hey You You I want to be your girlfriend Youre so fine I want you mine Youre so delicious I think about you all the time Youre so addictive Dont you know What I can do To make you feel alright Dont pretend I think you know Im damn precious And hell yeah Im the mother fucking princess I can tell you like me too And you know Im right Shes like so whatever You can do so much better I think we should get together now And thats what everyones talking about Hey Hey You You I dont like your girlfriend No way No way I think you need a new one Hey Hey You You I could be your girlfriend Hey Hey You You I know that you like me No way No way No its not a secret Hey Hey You You I want to be your girlfriend I can see the way I see the way You look at me And even when you look away I know you think of me I know you talk about me all the time again and again So come over here and tell me what I wanna hear Better yet make your girlfriend disappear I dont wanna hear you say her name ever again cause Shes like so whatever You can do so much better I think we should get together now And thats what everyones talking about Hey Hey You You I dont like your girlfriend No way No way I think you need a new one Hey Hey You You I could be your girlfriend Hey Hey You You I know that you like me No way No way No its not a secret Hey Hey You You I want to be your girlfriend In a second youll be wrapped around my finger Cause I can cause I can do it better Theres no other so whens it gonna sink in Shes so stupid what the hell were you thinking In a second youll be wrapped around my finger Cause I can cause I can do it better Theres no other so whens it gonna sink in Shes so stupid what the hell were you thinking Hey Hey You You I dont like your girlfriend No way No way I think you need a new one Hey Hey You You I could be your girlfriend No Way Hey Hey You You I know that you like me No way No way No its not a secret Hey Hey You You I want to be your girlfriend No Way Hey Hey You You I dont like your girlfriend No Way No way No way I think you need a new one Hey Hey Hey You You I could be your girlfriend No Way Hey Hey You You I know that you like me Now Way No way No way No its not a secret Hey Hey Hey You You I want to be your girlfriend No Way Hey Hey!

LOL XD

13/4

ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

im going SENILE! lmao
sunday. i finally saw you agn. xD after two consecutive weeks whicch = 14 days = 336 hours = 20160 minutes = 1209600 seconds of waiting. hahhahahax...rofl

my computer got reformated. omfg meaning ALL my photos n ALL my songs n ALL my favourite websites n ALL my com MEMORY!!!!!! in other words..i hv to start over! FROM ZERO~

T.T

bt nvm~~ take it as a reincarnation of my computer. =D

n today..another song which i LOVE so much~~
INNOCENCE--
Waking up I see that everything is ok
The first time in my life and now its so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great
I wouldnt change a thing about it
This is the best feeling
This innocence is brilliant,
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please dont go away,
I need you now
And Ill hold on to it, dont you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now its so clear
Feel calm I belong, Im so happy here
Its so strong and now I let myself be sincere
I wouldnt change a thing about it T
his is the best feeling
This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please dont go away,
I need you now
And Ill hold on to it, dont you let it pass you by
Its the state of bliss you think youre dreaming
Its the happiness inside that youre feeling
Its so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
Its the state of bliss you think youre dreaming
Its the happiness inside that youre feeling
Its so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
Its so beautiful it makes you want to cry
This innocence is brilliant, it makes you want to cry
This innocence is brilliance, please dont go away
Cause I need you now
And Ill hold on to it, dont you let it pass you by
This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please dont go away,
I need you now
And Ill hold on to it,
dont you let it pass you by~

i wont let it pass YOU by. ^^

12/4

SHYTE

i kinda lk REFORMATTED my com. n it's REborn. n hmwrk is piling up. MORAL tugASaN. OMG
n then....as usual EXAMS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GOSH im going HALF-senile.

10/4

well today was another rather..roguh day !

hmwrk-copying as usual la . nothing abnormal since we came up to form 4.

eunice~ i suddenly so so so so miss you! n km too. ARhH~~~~~
moral tugasan lol im nt gona pass up 2mr d. hahhahhax..

n limpoayli. lol she's reali getting pregnant? let's watch the show then~~ XD

i've been thinking. wat is gona bcm of me whn i graduate? piano teacher? doctor? biologist? the range is jz so RANDOM n i cant exactly fix a point !

so mny ppl taking akaun. "for wat?" i tot. i cant even finish my daily hmwrk d summore tk akaun i wil suffocate man!

aikxx. y do you always appear in my head whenever i need sumbdy to help me. sumtimes i was just about to press that SEND button on the hp but.. i dn wana interfere in ur life. aikxx. im jz stupid

YOU LA!! all YOUr fAUlT!!!! AAAARRRRRRRRRR~~~~~~~~~~ T^T

i reaLi reali reaLi reALi MISS you so muCh. whn can we talk 2geda agn? u're owlaz bz wif ur frenz.. cant u find sum time for me? mayb she's rite.
im nt that important in your heart, but do u knw, u're THAT important in my heart.
i duno wat to do whn u see this. eventually sumday you will. but. i wana secretly tell you that i like you.
I LIKE YOU!

3/4

today. lol i dn reali knw hw to strt this blog. since nbdy reads my blog hahhax

ok 1st of all i had this absolutely WEIRD dream.

in this dream it was like a war-type-of-world n practically every1 i knw is gone. n thn you came to my life. we stayed together. n you were so protective of me. i felt safe. first time in my DREAMS i ever felt that way. if it was in real life, hw nice would it possibly be?

the sun wasn't exactly SHINY. the plants weren't totally FRESH n sWeet- SCEnTEd. thE hoUSe wAsN't abSoluTely nicE n pretty n cosy n expensive. but you were there. for me. aikxx you're driving me nuts. that's the main point.

i nvr pictured you as that character. the one who could take care of me so closely. the one who could share my happiness with. honestly, this is the first time i ever felt this loved. actually i thought of that time i confessed to you. i never thought i would actually have the guts to do so. you know, i'm that typical kind of FRAIDY CAT. like shinyee XD but then u turned me down. so COOL-ly. haihx

now im confused. is it you or you? OMG. hElp~~~~~ h OR p?

MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY MAYDAY ~~~

hw i wish i cud go bec to those days. we were so CLOSE. but totally NOT close to falling in love. hw could you love such a person that doesnt even speak of you?

n now seeing ur profile which states you r " IN A RELATIONSHIP " totally breaks my heart. haih

1/4

so april fool. ya BIG deal. xD " eh today got huayue you know o rnot??!!" lol ya i know leng mint. haha

so today is a reasonably boring day. but, BUT singyee, me, eunice sparked up the day actually. =D lol i cudnt imagine that could've happened in front of like.. SO MANY PAIRS of eyes. YES.

hmwrk hmwrk hmwrk. basically wat i do everyday is LAZE around. n thn d hmwrk will jz PILE UP. until mountains...lk EVEREST. =.= ya..blieve me or not. moral, omg im so so sry Ms Lim. but i jz dn hv time for my other stuff. XP n calligraphy. hahhahax.. i dn wanna bump into u bcz perhaps u may recognize me n thn start thinking..."did she pass up her homework?" lmao.

assembly --
at 1st LSE was lk crapping n crapping n crapping n crapping n crapping n crapping n crapping n crapping n crapping n crapping n crapping n crapping n crapping n crapping n crapping n crapping n crapping n crapping n crapping n crapping n crapping n crapping n crapping n crapping n crapping n crapping n crapping n crapping n crapping n crapping n crapping n crapping n crapping n crapping n crapping n crapping n crapping n crapping n CRAPPING
LOL nt so cham la actuali. n thn d laugh part came. bluebirds eveolving into crows. WOO tht totally sounds nice !
[theory of evolution of bluebirds into crows]
hahhax..
they were lk so damn funny. my mum doesnt mk such horrible "cornering" when she's driving. lol..we were all sarcastic. laughing when one of the fellows tripped n almost fell. hahhax..
singyee, plz stop mking me laugh. XD no la..jkin nia

all of a sudden hmwrk feels more lk a burden than a commitment. i piled up all my hmwrk. arggghh.. n it sucks. even my BRAIN is deteriorating. HELP~ i dn rmb hw to solve physics & chemistry questions alrd. WAT HAPPENED TO ME. X.X

lol eikming can u really do tuition for us?! then i'l reali appreciate you.

catch up. catch up with hmwrk. catch up with SEJARAH ( which i hv to do notes referring to 30 pages in the txbuk ) KEWL. catch up with d latest buzz. ctach up with friendster. catch up with my piano. my scales. my pieces. my aural. ARGGHHH y u all cannot sacrifice of me?.. speaking of piano i kinda of miss weiting. hahhax.. tht perfectionist *winks*. n also catch up with THIS BLOG! omfg.

so many things to do, so little time.

wAN, wait for me. i'l catch up to you. nx yr. i'l work. n thn we cud b in the same class. n we'll go thru tht primary skool life agn. i could wait for you to go out for recess. i could go to the toilet with you. i could pair up with you for lisan n aural. i could copy ur hmwrk. XD

so many hopes, so many laziness. XD

niGhT. hAPpY ApRIl Fool'S anyway. Miss you leslie.

26/3

tomorrow is SEETENG'S birthday ~!!!!!! hAPpiE buRfdAE AlExSis. XD

ARrhRHhh~~~~ im actually totally absolutely WORN OUT today. i keep "pengsan"-ing on singyee's hand. hahhax.. n singyee. u bad girly hiak hiak hiak hiak---

so this morning actually started abnormally. ah mei was sick n absent for skool.normally, NORMALLY whn i woke up it'll only b ME n MY MUM @ home. n thn my mum will take me to skool. but today. one extra person. ^_^ ah mei is lk so kolian. no voice. aikx. tht is torturing. hope she gets well soon though. ^^

n thn i got to drag myself to skool again. arh MUNDANE. altho none of us like WWY but honestly his mastering on VOCABULARY is actually ' thumbs-up'. ewww i hate to say that. x.X

lol kasvini kasvini. aikx. i hate to admit but i really mistook you for our chinese teacher. im lk so so sorry.

today. i worked on our bulletin board. MY bulletin board =P from red, it shed to bcm BLUE. cool right? u knw y?? bcz i actuali put the background as blue, black, blue, black etc. n thn during CNY i put an extra layer of RED on top of d blue. hahhax... clever lei?? alamak. ZILIAN. hhahax..

huayue got particularly boring whn lai sheng came in. eik ming.. aikx she's GREAT. extremely great pianist and musician n conductor n mentor. n centre of self-motivation. made me actually feel nt so BElittled alrd. haih. im starting to actually bcm OBSESSED with huayue. 三十里铺！LMAO

thn BIO (unxpectedly) was BORING ! lol i nvr had a boring BIO lesson. probably it was after i wrestles with those drums. hahhax.. right eunice? xD

GERRRRRRRRRRRRRR i reali hate her face. great minds think alike, singyee. xD

so i have to set off for another 2 days at huayue n then PERFORMANCE is on SATURDAY !!!!! 29/3 . PINGHWA ppl. kindly come support us. RM3 per ticket. cheap cheap ma. XD

k larr..g2g d. buhByIie.

22/3

happy birthday to my darling TAN WAN ~ XD

countdown :one more day to TEOWCHEW association competition.
: 7 more days to pcghsco concert.
: 7 more days to earth hour "TURN OUT THE LIGHTS" programme. rmb to TURN OUT yours ^^
: 8 more days to cute szeyun's birthday.
: 148 days to..... MY BIRTHDAY! =D
and s omany more.

today, i'd like to share with u guys a very special song.

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cried
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you I love the things that you do
When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
And when you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you
We were made for each other
Out here forever I know we were
Yeah Yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me
Yeah
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

to that special guy. no matter what happens. you're still here -- in my heart. although i know..we're nt meant fr each other. i know you'll never like me but I .. never stopped liking you.

20/3

今天是公共假期， 但还是很累。 今天一整天都在困扰， 想这个想那个。
今天，跟帅哥去看电影。。不要乱想， 是我老爸！ XD 老爸真的很out， 连戏票多少钱都不知道。 但是不能怪他啦， 整天忙着工作， 连周星驰最新的电影也不知道是什么名字。 =D

所以， 今天算是满充实的。假期。。其实一天做得了很多东西， 却又好像什么都做不了。
哇。。我这个人好奇怪耶！ 哈哈哈哈。。。
哎呀。。刚刚明明有很多东西要写的。。想着想着又忘了。

16/3

one more week to the TEOWCHEW association competition.

one more day to SCHOOL REOPEN.

one more day to another torturing HUAYUE practice.

ONE MORE DAY to homeowrk torment.

ARHHHHHH~~~~~

BUT

it's ONE MORE DAY to go right?

soo...maybe i could still have fun TODAY.

i got my hair cut. this time, UNEXPECTEDLY im nt exactly mad @ the hairdresser auntie.

LMAO

knw y? cz i succeeded in keeping my LONG sides. ^^

n thn .. AS EXPECTED i saw him again. lol he's still here. in my BRAIN. in my HEAD. lol maybe that was wat Kylie Minogue said. "CAN'T GET YOU OUT OF MY HEAD" hahhahha..hw long was that song dated???? rofl

omg..HOMEWORK. i still have a "mountain" of homwrk.

today when i was in the saloon, i read in a magazine abt wat to do wif ur ex. hahhahhax.. thr were quite a few options.

1st. be friends with him/ her.
2nd. forget that person and begin a new life.
3rd. hate him/her till whenever. forever. like "sonnet 18" hahhahax....
4th. talk abt his/her bad wherever you go.
5th. curse him/her at all times.
6th. kill him/her.
7th....
8th..
.....
.....

LOL n d list goes on. i chose 3,4,5. cz tht "person" is certainly...a JERK. go to hell. don't think ALL the girls in this world is gonna fall for you bcz of ur poor talents in modifying lyrics or fluttering. YUCKS.

i was like. INCREDIBLY STUPID to even believe you would change! did you? did you NOT stop me from getting close with other guys? did you not ALWAYS question why i do every action? DID YOU? did you NOT always doubt me? did you EVER believe and trust me? DID YOU?!
f*uck you.

GGGGGGRRRRRRRRR~ guys, im SO SO sorry that i never heard your advices. i SHOULD have known that he is THIS GROSS.i cross my heart n solemnly swear i would never be that naive again. friends, im so so sorry for ignoring all ur thoughts. i really really, really thought i could change him.

and now. i would be so so SO SO happy if i could stop HER from falling deeper. sigh~ i know, whatever i do or say or express would be WORTHLESS n USELESS. but LISTEN. YOU MUST STOP YOURSELF.

x.X

see la see la..suddenly so bad mood liao. ggggrrrrrrrr

13/3 (2)

雨
不停落下来
花
怎么都不开
尽管我细心灌溉
你说不爱就不爱
我一个人 欣赏悲哀
爱
只剩下无奈
我
一直不愿再去猜
钢琴上黑键之间
永远都夹着空白
缺了一块 就不精采
紧紧相依的心如何 Say goodbye
你比我清楚还要我说明白
爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己 完成你的期盼
把手放开不问一句
当作最后一次对你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今后都不管
只要你能愉快 有一句感慨 还能够跟谁对白
在你关上门之前
替我再回头看看
那些片段
还在不在
心

this song is BEAUTIFUL. it made me cry.

I LOVE YOU~~ 曹格`

13/3 (2)

13/3

lol

so many days din blog already..

anybody miss me??!! OK. i know. "NO~~"
hahhahax..
haihhhxx

skool is reopening AGAIN n huayue AGAIN 2moro..hw m i gonna go over this kind of TORTURE

OMG~
T.T

now..my hmwrk. LMAO i din accomplish even ONE. even 1
die die die die!

so 2moro...going to see anthony's face again n laugh lk mad.

APE SHALL NOT KILL APE-
XD

#*~QI~*#

10/3

the day din turn out to be AS BAD as i expected it to be ytd.

nice job jiahui n wanyee..abandoned me.
X.X GGRRRRRRRRRRR

so as usual..laisheng tried to brk tht pity little skinny stick again but failed.

n attendance was...poor. just assume half of d whole orchestra was absent. some with reasons some without.

honestly i nvr tot i wud put orchestra in my mind at THIS perspective before.
i owlaz bore in mind tht it's NOT "THAT" important.

but this chged. n i duno y. mayb my juniors wil think lk me. hahhaax..

haPAPiE hoLIDAys~~~~~~ mwARHX

#*~QI~*#

9/3

election days..

my sister n i n my dad went for ar tui mee sua near sg. png
n then..we go into tht school n waited for dad to do his duty as a citizen.

COOL

n thn. DAP won like crazy man!

LMAO

election topic still very hangat up till today
n thn whn i think abt 2mr..

TT.TT

GOT HUAYUE PRACTISE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 9-4 pm !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GO DIE.

X.X

2/3

these few dyas im SO damn busy with sumthg...

STUDYING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

T.T

all my orh bak kak come out liao...

xD

to all those hving exams/ tests..

GOOD LUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

=D

#*~QI~*#

祝你生日快乐~
祝你生日快乐~
祝你生日快乐~
祝你生日快乐~！！！

你的生日怎样？ 应该会很快乐吧！
XD
不好意思啦。。买不到生日礼物给你。。就在这边跟你说。.
HAPPIE BUＲＦＤＡＥ!!!!!

惨了。。考试又到了。。
死鬼BIO 老师。。怎天在自High.. T.T
ADD MTHS 呢。。完蛋了啦。。
绝望绝望！

唉。。现在我又要回去做温习了。。再见！！

23/2/2008

lol i cant blif i got myself a blogger account. hahhahhaxx..

OMG 2day is 23rd alrd !!!!!!!!!!!!!

sHYTee..his burfdae is COMING!!!

ARRrHHhHhH~~~~~~~

and then..

EXAMSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS ARe cOMing TOoO~~

T_T

this means
less TV
less ON9 TIME
less MOVIES
less BLOGS
less TIME FOR PRACTISING PIANO

thEse dont sound GOOD.

T.T

whY DOes SeCondAry liFE nEed TO bE so TouGH!

siGH~

reALly hOpiNG thE tESt wilLb OVER in A GLImpSE of the EYe.

^_^

n to YOu~

HAPpIE BURfDAE To eUU
HAPpIE BURfDAE To eUU
HAPpIE BURfDAE To XXX
HAPpIE BURfDAE To eUU~!
u'll do great. i know u will.XD

#*~QI~*#